The Diary of a Manipulator

          Recently, I met a really amazing sub that was so obedient and charming. He was very dorky and awkward but still attractive, and on top of all of this he is very wealthy and young (only 25). A wealthy sub at 25? How can that be you may ask. Well he is a programmer and he works for dare I say it on this blog AirBnB. You know that website that allows you to rent out your couch to tourists? Yeah... you can credit him and his team mates for that. He really reminds me of Mark Zuckerberg the way he is so factual and awkward and socially inexperienced. Anyhow... things were going great til we hit a bump in the road a week ago. Brace yourself because the story that is about to unfold is like some lifetime movie shit.

        So I met this guy via craigslist per usual and we came to an understanding that this would simply be an online thing for now unless I decided I was comfortable with meeting IRL. In the first week of meeting him and dominating him I got about $800 in gifts and way more than that via paypal. We even had to call paypal because they were inquiring about the amount of money being sent to me and put a hold on my funds. Which was a pretty awkward conversation because of all the messages he wrote when he sent the money. So this kept on for about 3 or so weeks maybe more I’m not sure time sure flies when you’re spending money. Any how one night after we did a teamviewer session my mouse started to glitch and for some reason it just kept scrolling up and down the screen. 

     I chalked this up to my computer getting wet from sitting near an open window when it rained earlier in the week. So, I just left it alone and figured it would be all dried out and the glitch would stop by the next morning. Well, while I was sleeping I left my computer open and I could have sworn I saw the mouse opening tabs and scrolling around in the middle of the night, but I was so tired I figured I was either A. Imagining it or B. dreaming it. But then a few days later my ex messaged me via Skype and we started flirting and being friendly. Very next morning I get a message from “Mark”. 

“So do you have any other subs? Are you single? Who else are you talking to besides me?” I was so confused and a little defensive too. I mean it’s one thing to talk on a cordial level with a sub but how dare you ask your Princess such personal questions! and in an accusatory tone? Oh Heeeelllll NAW! So of course I totally denied seeing anyone else and included that maybe if I was, it was none of his business. His reply: “Maybe it is my business because I don’t want to be serving a Princess who isn’t loyal to me and who would sneak behind my back and talk to other guys.” Now this was very eerie. I literally just spoke to my ex for the first time yesterday so how could he possibly even suspect something was going on. So then I started to ask him why he would ask me that... and he answered the question like a politician (skipping everything I asked and telling me what he wanted to instead). I felt a little guilty so I let it go. 

But later on in the day my gut was telling me that something was up so I pressed him on it. I mean... how the fuck could he have known? He tried to gaslight me and make me feel as if I was paranoid that he would know something because I felt guilty. But sidestepping his Jedi mind tricks I got to the point and told him that if he did not tell me I was done. So finally he gave in and sheepishly sent me a few screenshots of MY SKYPE CHAT WITH MY EX!

....

My heart could have jumped out of my chest it was beating so fast. I was scared, and shocked and angry... and so confused all at once.

How? How... that’s the only word that kept scrolling through my mind. HOW!? To this day I have no clue. But I figured it had something to do with teamviewer and the glitchy mouse and probably some hacking shit. I asked him more about how he got into my Skype and what else he had been getting into and he admitted to looking through my Facebook, my Instagram, Tumblr... pretty much everything.

At this point I just cut him off cold turkey and blocked him from everything possible and cried my eyes out. 

I told you this was like some lifetime movie shit.

Anyway flash forward to this week and I kind of got over it. He apologized and apologized and I realized that blocking him probably wouldn’t stop him from accessing my social media if he really wanted to anyway and besides... we had a good thing going. What I learned from this is NEVER and I do mean NEVER underestimate your benefactor. They may seem harmless and clueless at times but sometimes they can even be smarter and more manipulative than you! 

Happy Sugaring,

First off... you have to know yourself and know what is the best option for you. I was willing to be sexual with the person who was going to sponsor my body are you? It worked out very well for the two of us because I lost about 54lbs and he got to sleep with a very hot and toned young woman. But you have to know your boundaries and limits. Then, decide on what it is that you want and put it out into the world and see who is willing to negotiate with you. That’s basically exactly what I did. I wanted a better body, a trainer and healthy food, but I didn’t want to spend the money. What do you want?

Good luck and happy sugaring,

I do not use SD websites exclusively no. I like to use Craigslist, Omegle, sometimes chatroulette and most recently Tinder as well. When it comes to a situation such as the one you are in it all depends on how good you are with manipulation. You can easily turn this date into an SD arrangement if you know what you’re doing. Step 1. Make him like you. Be real, be natural be yourself and pretend to be into him. Step 2. Wait for him to show you he’s very very interested in you as well. Step 3. Be the damsel in distress. Ut oh! suddenly you lost your job and rent is due. Or... you have to pay some bill or fix your car and you don’t have the money. Your guy who is very much into you will gladly front you the money if you were convincing enough. ;) 

Good Luck and Happy Sugaring,