Diary Of A Bipolar Girl

Trying to fit in this world. I’m just so socially awkward.. it’s not even funny. I only have one friend. And the rest they come and go when they please. I just want to stand up and be happy and normal. But I don’t see that in my cards..

It’s another day.. still stuck in this funk. I know one of these days need to go back to work .. be part of society. It actually gives me anxiety. I cried this morning remembering all that has happened to me. I haven’t eaten, just coffee. I need to get better for family.. but more so for myself. I hate putting my family through this. I just wished I can just pack up and move to another location and start fresh. But I really can’t just run away. I must face my demons and conquer them.

I’ve been isolating myself from everything and everyone.. haven’t been at work since last week. This has to be one of the worst meltdowns I had in awhile. Going to ask to be particle hospitalized tomorrow. Wish me luck