Show Me Your Darkside

Oh, that’s exciting, Miss. Please tell me Sebastian has to get his hands dirty on the farm, and that there will be pictures.

Things are good. I might be up for a promotion at work, so that’s exciting. I think they will be, Miss. It all kinda depends on Cooper’s shooting schedule.

Well, we generally all help out on the farm, but I don’t think there will be too much to get his hands dirty.  Unless my momma corners him in the kitchen.  Which I wouldn’t be too sad about; especially if it means his wonderful crepes.  

That’s Blaine. How are things with you, Miss?

Things are very good Sam.  Just making some plans for Thanksgiving this week.  Sebastian and I are going to head home to my family’s farm.  

I’m missing him, but he’s Blaine. He can be on the other side of the world, and I still get to know what an amazing boyfriend and Dom he is.

I know the feeling. I’m happy for you.

Thank you.  I am happy too.

Girl, you’ve got good taste.

Seb: So very very true. My brilliant, beautiful Darling.

Seb: Absolutely on board.

Mia: Always your Darling.

Seb: I love that you recognize my brilliance.

Seb: Never alone. Yeah? I think that sounds perfect.

Mia: Brilliance recognizes brilliance.

Mia: Never Sweetheart. Good. I was hoping you'd say that.

Mia: Hmmm you might be right.

Mia: I will let her know.

Mia: Oh yeah? I like the sounds of that a lot. And so will everyone else. You're gonna have to face some of the extendeds this time. Sorry.

Seb: Might? You know I am.

Seb: I can handle it. I'm made of tough stuff.

Mia: Always right. My very intelligent Sweetheart.

Seb: Modesty doesn't become me.

Seb: And I send her love right back.

Seb: It could be worse. Definitely ready for the break. I was thinking...I think I'd like to go back to the ranch for the holiday.

Mia: Hmmm you might be right.

Mia: I will let her know.

Seb: It's true. We are adorable.

Seb: Sooo many, hmm? Good. We deserve it.

Seb: I love you too, darling.

Mia: Oh look at you... being so modest.

Mia: Almost everyone at work. Lots of family. Momma sends her love.

Mia: Sweetheart, we're so cute I can't deal.

Mia: I've had so many comments today. But sssshhh you know I love it.

Cray-cray about this guy.  So proud of all his hard work.  #mysweetheart

Bas: Cannot wait to have some time off at the holiday.

Mia: Do you want to stay here or go home to the Ranch?

Surprised that I feel the need for the level of control in my life that I do. Sometimes. 

I think…in the spirit of everything that has happened in the past that I was reminded of today…I was also reminded of the importance of moving forward. History is meant to be left behind us; revisited when the lessons are in danger of being forgotten, but honored by otherwise leaving it be. I’m willing to…attempt to atone and move on from that history with you. Do you imagine that as something we could achieve between us?

Oh, yes! Like Truman Capote, when he wrote “In Cold Blood.” There were details that he made entirely himself but a lot of it was based in the facts of his research.

It hasn’t always made things with Saeid smooth sailing, but it has…kept me in the lifestyle to which I’ve become accustomed…and I believe it helps people.

Why does it surprise you so much?  And what levels of control are we talking about here?  Really?

I agree.  But as much as you might want me to work with you on yoga, it requires me being in a bit of a position and power.  And given the reason you’re looking for yoga; it might be counter productive, although on the other hand it could be really good for you.  I made my peace with what happened. If it seems like I haven’t, I apologize for not being able to just go back to same level of friendship we had before without working back up to that.

Yes, so based on the campaign trail, and the people I met on it, but the names and details changed to protect the innocent.  And perhaps not so innocent.  

Bas: Indeed I do, darling.

Bas: See you quite soon.

My issue is that…there was the legal fallout from the event that brought me here…and then there was the personal one. The legal one feels better because there is action to be taken to resolve it. The personal…is a little more complicated. I know that part of the legal recourse is helping me to move on from what happened but I feel—unresolved. About certain aspects. Yes, of course. I think…I am always surprised when I still have to grapple with that side of me.

  The discussion of you taking on yoga again? Or perhaps a private session?

  How goes your writing Mia? What are you working on lately?

Even when there is action to resolve something, unless the action is something that affects you, that you connect to, then it’s basically as if nothing has been done.  Don’t you think?  I know I’ve been in that situation myself.  And seeking closure on events can be very hard, and draining.  I finally had to just address it myself.  Decide what I wanted to do with that situation and deal with it that way.

Surprised that you feel the need to Dominante someone?  Or the need to control all aspects of your life?

I’m quite busy both with work at the house and my writing, but I might take a daily class.  I am still saddened the partner yoga didn’t take off more.  I might be able to take on a more private session; if you think that is wise given our... history.  

The writing is going well.  I am working on a collection of stories about the political campaign I wrote and photographed for before I came to Harborage House.  I wrote political things then, this time I’m coming at it from a personal level. Like a factual fiction.