I love Brandi and think she’s amazing but I found myself losing muse and unsure what to do. I love Sonya and think she’s a beautiful woman with an old soul. She gives me content on the daily and I’m excited to breath life into her here. She’s single, confident and ready to take on the world. She’s wide open for anything you want to do and I’m always happy to help further along anything you already have if she can be of help or hinderance.(I love angst)

It’s always fun to get to be a referee and screw over people. The fans hate it and  I love having heat.

I hope so but pleased not guilty by way of insanity has gotten people off before. I don’t need him back on the streets ever again. I hope it is too and will keep on them till they let us do it. Take care of yourself, okay?

Yeah, it’s a lot and has been hard to deal with. And the idiot even plead not guilty at his trial so here we go again, back to court. She hasn’t and she’s said it was the one thing she wanted before she retires. Trin’s my girl and I need to help that to happen if I can in some way. I’ll take a Mania. I’ll take whatever I can get for her. That’s what I’m working on. It’s a shame, my good things ruin things for others. Life sucks at times.

It felt like it was a slow motion dream or nightmare and we couldn’t wake up from it. No Raya is amazing and I love whenever I get to see her. The fans were so rude but got better after we all spoke on it and Raya told them herself it wasn’t Merc’s fault. I can’t believe he had all that shit with him and was going to try and do all that crap. He’s a nutjob, I quickly woke Mand up and got us out of there. Demon is my watch dog and my emotional self therapy dog. Few people know that but I was a mess after all of that. I even pulled away from things with Merc for awhile because physically I didn’t want anyone to touch me. It sounds crazy but it was a lot to process and unpack mentally. You don’t want to hear about that so I’ll stop there. It’s all you can do in a situation like that or it will eat you up inside and make you not want to go out of your house or do anything. I consider myself a strong woman but that almost broke me.  I’m going to keep asking to wrestle and to let Naomi have her feud. All the time she’s been with the company and she never had a proper feud. I want to give her that and I will if I can. I hope you’re right.

Grrr. kidding. 😝 She didn’t, half the time Pam was sitting next to her talking to her trying to keep her calm. Mickie kept wanting to get closer to see what was going on and me and Mand were shocked, staring while pacing bu tone things for sure, we were all crying. They wanted to stretcher her out but she begged them to let her walk so they helped her walk. I hate that saying but it’s true, sometimes bad things happen to nice people. Look at me and my stalker fan. That still bothers me to this day but I can’t let it continue to ruin my relationships. I have to put it behind me and go forward. I wish they would understand that and let me get back in there. I’m okay and ready to be in there again.

There’s no reason to be. I promise I’m not going to eat you or anything. We did and it always went perfect. You had Raya, me, Mand, on one side with Merc, Mickie and Pam on the other....all we could do was watch. Merc blamed herself but it wasn’t her fault but when you’re the one in there it’s a normal reaction. I don’t think any of us slept that night and were at the hospital all night with her. I have no idea what I am which sounds awful. I suppose I am till they change their minds. It’s been nice to be back and not worry about my head going to a bad space but it’s time I got back in there and stopped doubting myself. I’m a wrestler, not a suit.

Does us talking make you nervous? I never worked the indie circuit but did work mma briefly, very briefly. She was mine and Mandy’s manager but she got injured. That was an awful night, I’ll never forget the six of us back there crying together. What made it so bad was it wasn’t Merc’s fault but the fans were horrible to her. We all defended her to ignorant fans.  Raya was away awhile and then came back to manage Asuka and Kairi  but that didn’t last long either. She’s an ambassador now for the company. Some of us have been through a lot together but it makes us closer. Don’t feel bad I have selective memory too.

Have you ever known me not to be? Jersey girl all the way, opinionated and not afraid to speak my mind. I think that’s one thing that makes me a  good speak, that and I lived a lot of shit. I can see how all of you get along and I admire that. Moral looks to be high and there’s so many talented, young stars there. I’m still trying to give Naomi her match. 😅

I’m not one to beat around the bush about things or take hits at people. I don’t see a reason to and it’s silly. I love Jade but Dori’s been a close friend for awhile and I want to see her do good. She’s getting some recognition now finally. I also can’t help but sing along to her theme song. They keep teasing it but never let the match happen for one reason or another. Talk about frustrating.

I think most are or they been under a rock. You thought I was being mean? You’re welcome. It’s always fun when I come to a show and can watch live. Still upset about Dori not winning the other night but I’m sure she can get another shot in a month or two. Now if they would actually let me get back in the ring I would be thrilled.

I saw most of your stuff before you got injured but you know I’m more into the ladies than the guys. 😆