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Exam period is coming up for me so I’m going to invest more of my time in studying so I’ll (hopefully) do well. Sorry to put replies on a halt, I may possibly get to them within the timeframe of these dates if I have the time and urge to write, but other than that, activity will be scarce to nil. If you wish to interact with my muse, you’re welcome to follow her on twitter as I’ll be semi-active on there (@deukces).

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Joohyun was glad. Jennie appeared to appreciate the conversation that’s going on between the two of them. Normally, Red Velvet’s leader would converse with words carefully thought out and recited as if it were memorized straight from a script. Most of the time, this happened whenever she was in front of the camera or in front of other people who she wasn’t very close to or very familiar with. While talking to Jennie, however, everything was lighthearted and casual despite their shared amusement with the deep crevices of the mind. 

If Jennie was trying to get through Joohyun through flattery, Joohyun wasn’t sure. Still, the shorter female is able to laugh at her small comment in a more carefree manner, though the habit of covering her mouth was still there. “If I’m awesome, what do you call yourself? I don’t think I have more cool bones than you do in your body.” She smiled, pertaining to the girl’s charisma she would always see on stage. She discovered that Jennie was somehow a tiny bit different off of it, though. “If a forever lasting friendship is what Jennie wants, Jennie gets.” She smiled playfully at the younger, though it was an indication that she was most welcome to bother the older whenever she liked.

Though inner conscience told her that eating too much wouldn’t be a good idea in the long run, she slurps on her food as if the thought hadn’t even crossed her mind, her eyes curving into crescents as she agrees with Jennie yet again. “Yes, yes. I think we have to both thank and curse Kyle Hanagami choreographer for that.” She chuckles, aware that BLACKPINK and Red Velvet did share the same choreographer on some occasions. 

The statement which cued from the older’s vocal chords left Jennie vaguely baffled, lips separating into a soft circle whilst a lone eyebrow furrowed in her fleeting moment of disbelief. However, succumbed to a lapse of thought, she then swung a hand in the air to coyly dismiss the words; her features crumpled softly, a smug smile concealed poorly by her efforts. “No way, don’t say that. I may seem cool but I’m really not. You know, in most people’s books, I’d probably be considered a dork if they knew me well enough,” she stated factually, expression rather matter-of-fact. 

“Jennie gets...?” repeating to affirm the words, a mischevious curve paved over lips, “You’re feeding my bratty needs, eonnie. Is this a good thing or a bad thing?” A snicker erupted, eyes glinting playfully before lowering her head and consuming a light portion of her meal, vision unfazed and remaining settled on Irene. After the female had chewed and swallowed, a softer emotion instead laced the ambience of her face. “I’m joking. But-- A forever lasting friendship sounds nice. I like your company, so I hope we can only grow closer!”

Leave it to Seulgi to become startled at her own shadow. Even though compared to the other members, they would consider her to be the most brave and daring, she did have her moments of weakness, let alone paranoia that she seemed to feel even now. She had silently hoped that her the jolt  her body gave in reaction to seeing the dark figure behind her was not obvious, but it was clearly a failed attempt in masking her fright as the other made such a remark. “I just really thought it was someone else– or rather, their own shadow…” her voice trails off as the two females continue their dark walk down the secluded path. The two  had figured it would be an easier way to avoid paparazzi and fans, but it seemed to come with the consequence of being in a lesser area of safety, as they could never know what would pop out at them. At least, this was how it was seen within Seulgi’s mind.

“Rosé, Rosé!” she mimicked the voice’s tone in which called her, feet hurrying over to the side of her friend before cooing in awe, astounded at the beautiful scene which graced vision. “Wah…. It’s so pretty! Did you take a photo, did you?” Tugging at the material of Rosé’s sleeve, she gushed over the sight that illustrated a fuzzy creature quietly nestled in a bed of flowers, almost seeming too ethereal to be part of any reality. There was a certain beauty in the organic state of nature that Jennie could not help but adore, focus fixated upon the animal as she cupped her cheeks with wonderment.

            the  teen  shrugs  his  shoulders  &  looks  ahead  .  “  i’m  not  really  going  anywhere  ,  i’m  just  …  walking  .  there’s  a  nice  library  this  way  though  .  ”  he  says  honestly  .  “  what  about  you  ?  ”  turning  to  see  if  the  girl  is  still  being  followed  ,  one  last  flash  is  directed  towards  the  pair  before  the  photographer  runs  off  &  minjae  tilts  his  head  a  little  .  “  weird  …  at  least  he’s  GONE  .  ”

Stealing a glance in the direction of the fleeing photographer, she quietly felt a rush of relief although confident that the photos he had snapped were all but too obscure to prove her identity. Jennie looks back at the male, bearing a much more enthused smile than previously, “Every place needs weird ones to balance out the sane.” Laughter sprung brightly from her small stature, delicate wafts lacing into the air before conveying an interest in the library he spoke of, intrigue lining her expression. “Library, huh? I haven’t had the chance to visit one up this way... I take it that you like to read then, hm?”

“Not on my watch.” Jongin’s competitiveness while gaming bordered on unhealthy; his fingers smashing against keys briskly, eyebrows furrowed and eyes pointed with distinct concentration paid to the screen. The lobby he’d been playing in wasn’t his own (having just jumped in the middle of Sehun’s game when the other had gotten up for food) and for that reason, he wasn’t sure who he was currently playing against, the IDs all unfamiliar to him. What he did know, though, was that the mocking voice of the female on the other end spurred him into unleashing his best combinations on her in an attempt to regain the lead, a triumphant howl echoing into the headset when his tactic proves effective.

“Guess it’s my dust you’ll be eating, huh?” His tone is as smug as ever, but the round isn’t over yet, so he mentally makes note to not get ahead of himself. Settling down with his attention brought back to the screen, he tries to implement his next plan of attack, but he finds himself growing distracted. The more the female’s voice came through, the more the tone was ringing familiar to him, until finally, he pieces together a face to match it. “Jen… Jennie? It’s Jennie, isn’t it?”

Eyes were entranced by the screen before her, unable to neglect the sight of her game as she watched her opponent prepare his next line of attack. Even with a keen desire to win and the utmost attempts to defend her character from his wrath, there was no outwitting the skilled strike of her foe, severely damaging her health thus eliciting an agitated groan. Jennie thought rapidly, devising a plan to fire back and once more regain her position of dominance, ignorant to the shift of voices that took place as she was too caught up in satisfying her hunger for victory. “You better watch it,” she threatened, preparing herself to blast Jongin’s confidence out the window.

A gracious smile glided its way up through the tips of her lips, sincere enough to bring both at ease. Although there could’ve been a realization felt regardless if the younger denied that fact, Sunmi could’ve been a little dim at times- though that doesn’t mean there lacked common sense. Force wasn’t a gesture the woman was familiar with, considering being raised by such generous and affectionate parents who definitely understood rather than neglected- spawned a particular idea to at least give a break to Jennie. Fingers tapped lightly against her lips, conjuring a typical plan before speaking in a gentle and gracious tone. 

“You’re right, we all do but don’t forget that I’ll always be here. Just know you’re never alone, you have your members and more who care about you, in the end everything will be worth it. But okay, hmm do you want to get some food before you go back to the dorm? It’ll be my treat!”

The words, though ones she already knew deep down, resonated with her and clawed close to the emotional depths of her heart. Jennie’s exterior remained intact, however, tough and unfazed by Sunmi’s statement -- a contrast to the whirling thunderstorm that thudded inside, almost crashing into her reality.  She scraped aside the hindering allure to shed a tear at the beauty of the matter, instead only permitting herself to acknowledge the gesture of food.

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE

★★★★★★★☆☆☆: LIKES NEW THINGS ★★★★★★☆☆☆☆: LIKES NOVEL SETTINGS ★★★★★★★★★☆: INTELLECTUAL/IDEAS/IMAGINATIVE ★★★★★★★★★★: ENJOYS ART/CULTURE/ADVENTURE

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS

★★★★★★★★☆☆: SELF-DISCIPLINED   ★★★★★★★★★★: HARD-WORKING   ★★★★★★★★☆☆: PREPARED/DUTIFUL   ★★★★★★★★★★: AIMS TO OVER-ACHIEVE  

EXTRAVERSION

★★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆: OUTGOING   ★★★★★★★★☆☆: RISK-TAKING   ★★★★★★★☆☆☆: EXCITEMENT-SEEKING ★★★★★★★★☆☆: PHYSICALLY ADVENTUROUS  

AGREEABLENESS

★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆: TRUSTING ★★★★★★☆☆☆☆: COMPASSIONATE ★★★★★★★★☆☆: EMPATHETIC ★★★★★★★★★☆: ENJOYS COMPANY            

NEUROTICISM

★★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆: ANGRY ★☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆: DEPRESSED ★★★★☆☆☆☆☆☆: ANXIETY ★★★★★★★★★☆: EMOTIONALLY STABLE

&& *  ❝ unnie how was i suppose to know that–? ” she whined in a playful manner. she was a bit embarrassed as she truly though that the older wasn’t talking to her at all. of course, she wouldn’t been able to know that as she was so focused on something else that she didn’t realized that they were the only two in the room. “ don’t make fun of me. i could’ve actually been talking to myself. ” she said with a laugh.  

Day after day Sunmi witnessed both of her parents work extremely hard for the numerous passions they possessed since she was an adolescent. You wouldn’t have known there was an ounce of knowledge within the dark brown haired girl, accurately enough there wasn’t many who knew the intelligence that lurked behind closed doors. There were a few idols who she knew personally due to the various managers who called the company for apparel reasons. You could say it could’ve been a primary reason from her parents- considering being the daughter of the business was something essential; to them anyway. Sunmi mostly chatted over instagram posts or even kakaotalk messages but never in person considering how busy their schedules were, all in all there was complete understanding.

Her tone became genuine and sincere yet attentive, shifting directions to look at the younger- smiling delicately while laying a hand on their shoulder. “Of course. It’s always worth it. I know you work so hard and you can only go up from here so don’t feel down okay? There’s so much more ahead of you. Is there something you want to talk about considering you asked me that?”

The hand that rested upon her shoulder provided a sense of calmness, soothing away her worries into oblivion in that moment. For such a successful group with only just over a year of experience, it would seem intangible for the member to express doubt, however, behind the positive exterior and wealth was a blanket of concerns that swayed silently in the breeze. Jennie rarely uttered them (if ever) yet somehow her tongue slipped and thoughts spilled out without volunteering.

It was not the public’s reception that terrified her though, instead her bosses critique and absence of praise that pressed her to feel they weren’t quite hitting the mark -- she may look like one to easily take harsh judgment, but deep down her CEO’s words struck like a knife. Of course, there was always room for improvement and Jennie understood this, however, she wasn’t sure of how far that line of improvement strayed from her teams current standing. Were they good enough?