Desirea Nightfall-Sunsorrow

It had only been three days since we exchanged our vows. Three blissful days held up alone in a small home high on the hills of the Jade forest. If it was up to me I would never leave this place, or this moment, but things have a funny way of happening. Fighting the urge to just roll back over and cuddle against Naz was hard until my outstretched arm found his side to be empty. I awoke, startled but saw Hooligan close by. Ugh.. Guess that only means no more sleep for now. Reluctantly pulling away the covers, I fight my way out of the bed. "Just because you're pregnant and about to blow, doesn't mean your crippled silly girl," I tell myself. With a count to ten I go to swing my legs over, really should have rethought that... The first wave of pain rolled through me taking me by surprise. I think Hooligan even cowered at the sound. My breath is lost as I can feel the pain rippling from my back to my front. I try to catch my breath, but the break is only minutes long. “Oh no, this is it. Where is Naz?” I spoke as if someone was listening, but I guess one was when I heard the howl coming from Hooligan calling for his master. I count in my head, like paces on the ground the time before each body shaking surge of pain rips through me. “One.. two… three… fo-“ more screams sound from the tranquil home. I can hear Naz approaching, really needing to spoil Hooligan some more for being my saving grace. I try to smile when he walks in but the pain is overbearing. Naz can see it too as I see the color drain from his face. Before another word is spoken the bowl of fruit he was collecting is on the floor, he is at my side, almost as panicked as I am. Sure I have delivered babies before, but never have I had my own. He left my side, only long enough to send of his raven. Nera… I needed Nera now. The pains kept coming, closer and closer together. “I can do this… I can-.. Aaahhh.. “My hand is gripped tightly around Naz’s. He leaves my side only long enough to send a raven to search for Nera. What may have been an hour seemed like eternity. Each time the pain got worse and closer together, the breaks between these surges growing less and less. Finally, Nera comes rushing in.  My Gods if an elf could have wings, Nera would right now. Quickly to my side, she and Naz exchange a few words. I wasn’t listening as my screams kept drowning them out. “Let this be over, let me rest, “ Was all I could think about. Nera must have sensed my exhaustion as I could feel a warm light spreading over me. It felt soft and comforting. “Why didn’t I think of that? Oh.. yea.. cause I am in trying to have a child right now.” My thoughts criticize my own actions only pulled out of their trying circle at Nera’s next words. “I can see him, you need to push.” With another tight grip on Naz’s hands I do as ordered. My teeth grit as all the blood drains from my face. Breathless and winded, I lay against Naz’s supporting chest. Nera barks her commands at me again, “Push!” I follow, giving everything I possibly can. The room starts to fade from my sight as the pounding in my head roared to life. It wasn’t till I heard the first screams of someone either than myself. It was music to my ears. My eyes opened quickly as I saw him in her arms. Tears streaming from my eyes as I could not wait to hold him. Naz, doing his fatherly duties, Nera bathing him before finally he is swaddled and wrapped up in my arms. Tierion Sunsorrow. The most beautiful sight that has ever crossed my path. His tears subside as I hold him close. His head placed against my heart as he must hear the beating of it. I tear my eyes away long enough to only look up to his father. Both of our smiles saying it all.

     I have finally found the home I longed for in life. Completed by the man I always had my eyes and heart set on, no matter where we were in our lives. Nazwrath Sunsorrow. We sat there, my body telling me it would be almost time for the arrival of our little one. Naz cringing with every grumble I made. Thoughts of names... things that still needed to be done topping our conversations. There was one item of business that played on our mind. What I thought was him joking was not that at all. I could see in his eyes the seriousness when he asked me, "Let's get married tonight." The words danced in my ears as I waited for this moment. So in a personal ceremony, with only a witness standing by, Naz and I exchanged our vows. Tears being forced not fall as he grabbed me by the waist and whispered, "Mrs. Sunsorrow." I had to have him repeat it to ensure I was not dreaming. This was happening. No longer was I the lost child left for someone to care for, I now belonged to the love of my life. I would now and forever be known as Desirea Sunsorrow, wife and soon, very soon, to be mother.

Heavy hearted when he is away, so many things to do, decisions to make. Hoping to not have to go through this next step alone.

     It had been a long day, but there was one last thing to be done. I had to meet with Naz out in the Jade Forest. There was a bad feeling in my gut. I had to go to him, I had to make sure everything was alright.  I found him there, standing underneath a tree in the Arboretum. A beautiful sight as the blossoms fell on the ground and in the water. He himself, his masculine frame leaning against the tree with Hooligan faithfully by his side. I approached him with a light step. My heart about ready to burst as he looked up at me underneath his cowl.  I was right though, something was wrong. I could see it all over his face. I tried to talk to him, tried to reason with him… He went on and on about how nothing in his life had meaning, how he anymore was just taking up space. Over and over I tried to change his mind, think of reasons he needed to be here. I pulled out everything I could think of, except for one. It was probably the most important to me but I could not let him know. Then he pulled out the dagger, the gleam of the cold steel catching my eye and freezing me into place. His words woke me from my dazed slumber as I heard him speak of ending it right now. I watched as he drew the dagger to his wrist, my body leaping forward before I could even think as I tackled him to the ground. It took a moment for my mind to catch up, and there I was, laying on top of him, pinning him down. I searched us both, making sure we were unharmed. I saw him trying to reach the dagger that had been thrown aside, I snatched it quickly, throwing it to Hooligan making him run off with it, out of Naz’s reach. It was then, with a hint of anguish in Naz’s face he asked me why I had stopped him. Every answer I gave him was not sufficient for him. He asked one last time, the tears flooded my vision as I could no longer hold back, “Because I love you.” I said to him. Oh, the shock on his face could only match the shock in the tone of my voice as I heard those words leave my mouth. Both of us staring at each other, the features on his face softened as my words sank in. He wanted to know why I never told him, why I waited so long, and most importantly why I could ever love a man like him. The Only thing I could think in my mind and heart was how could I not love him? We continued to talk for what seemed like hours. I never thought I could ever feel as high above the world as I did at this moment. The sky could shatter and fall in pieces around me and I would not notice. This would be the beginning of an adventure I was not sure if I was ready to take, but with him, I could not resist but to find out.

Feelings and fears within the heart of Desirea...

     Not long after Naz would have to experience the same ill fate I had. Both of us consoling in one another. Chasing after legends and keeping busy. Neither one of us were prepared at what would happen.

The tear stained note was the only thing linking this child to her family, or at least to her mother. The priest took her in with hopes to find a family. What he expected to be a long night turned into an enjoyable one for the old man. He expected the child to be fussy but instead he noticed she had a natural calmness to her, a special aura that glowed around her. He knew then he could not give her away, he had to raise and train her in the way of the light. He knew she was destined to follow in the same footsteps as himself and Desirea was brought to him for this reason. But what did he know about raising a child, especially a female elf as herself? He would enlist in help of the parish to aid him. And from there, Desirea’s path was set.