Lewd Behavior

Social situations Im not funny enough Not smart enough Am I trying too hard? Do they like me? Try not to act like you care Relationship anxiety is here He thinks I’m pathetic He thinks I’m stupid Am I acting weird? Of course I’m acting weird Own it Wait you over did it Stop over doing it Am I wearing too much makeup? My skin sucks I sound really stupid all the time Does he think I’m an embarrassment? Probably Why did I say that weird thing? I always say weird things I have nothing interesting to say Because I have no life experience He is so god damn cultured He probably feels bad for me Why is everything I say condescending? I am so fucking rude. I sound stupid. I am stupid and uneducated Everyone thinks I’m weird and dumb. Quit laughing at everything. Socialll anxietyyyy I’m fat I’m out of shape Why do I keep doing things that hurt me Why can’t I get over myself I only think about me I’m so rude and selfish I have no work ethic I’m lazy and dumb Why don’t I do things I know will help make me happy? I’m so behind in life Relationship anxiety AGAIN Does he even like me? Why do I never have anything good to say Why am I SO AWKWARD He’ll get sick of me soon Oh definitely My flaws (meaning every trait of mine) will kill this He’s so perfect and I’m so not I’m so pathetic Why do I never learn? Maybe there’s a reason so many people left my life Stop watching everything you say WHY CANT I EVER ARTICULATE MY FEELINGS CORRECTLY Maybe if I get help it’ll be better I’m so weak Just numb it allllll Social anxiety Stop trying so damn hard You’re not funny Quit trying Am I sad? Am I mad? Laugh about it awkwardly to someone Procrastinate everythinggggg Stress about procrastination Distract yourself from responsibility I’m bad at literally everything I do I’m so lazy Insecurities are always here to make it allllll worse Why am I so weird? Stop being such a hypocrite I’m so ugly Nobody will ever love me I have too much baggage Do I even know what my baggage is? There’s so many people with infinitely worse problems Stop being so whiny You have nothing to complain about Do something with yourself You’re a nobody Everyone is so much better than you Everyone is smarter and funnier than you You have nothing to contribute to a relationship You are unloveable You are unreliable You are too weird You are incredibly lazy You are pathetic You are stupid You forget everything Why can’t you ever remember anything Probably because you are dull Why do you eat so horribly? I’m so weak Emotionally and physically Insecure as fuck That is extremely unattractive He will be so turned off by that If you say anything he’ll never forget He doesn’t wanna deal with that That’s why the last guy left you Because you’re bitchy and whiny And extremely rude Doesn’t help that you have nothing to contribute to a relationship Why can’t you be as strong as you put off? Relationships are hard Only for you though Nobody wants to be with someone as draining as you Nobody wants to fuck with a sad girl You’re only good for sex And hardly that You’re out of shape You’re fat And unattractive And awkward And weird You always say weird and out of place shit Why don’t you have anything to say Stop trying to impress everyone They think you’re trying too hard It’s obvious Don’t cry You wanna cry Don’t cry around him He is already embarrassed to be with you He’ll stop inviting you to more things He’s probably been with wayyyy better women He sees me as a child Do I act like a child? I’m so boring though I have no stories Even if I did I’d butcher them Because I’m bad at everything I do You’re so messy and disgusting You’re life is a pig sty What are you even doing with yourself Relationship anxieties creeping back Why can’t I just fucking articulate how I feel Should I tell him about how much of a mess I am? Will he accept me? Doubtful He’s so levelheaded He’ll probably freak out Will he be okay with my scatterbrained head? If I even do when do I say it? What if it scares him off? It probably will because you won’t word anything correctly Can you handle another rejection? Get over yourself For fucks sake How pathetic are you? Why so serious all the time? You’re take everything way to seriously You overreact to everything Why can’t you just relax I’m incapable of having a conversation about my mental state with my boyfriend Wow That’s sad Moooooore social inadequacies You’re so high strung But dull at the same time Why can’t you focus on one goddamn thing You are untalented and sad You never finish anything What are you so scared of? I have no idea You’re fucking crazy A straight lunatic actually He will get so sick of you so quickly Because of how ridiculous your head is Do you even know what’s going on in there half the time? Nope just numb it like always Feel nothing But feel everything Pretend it’s all okay