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Teacher’s day is next Friday & I’ve already received 2 early teacher’s day pressie from 2 of my kiddos that I taught in 2017 and 2016 :’) I’m so blessed

Happy, bcos I’ve never thought that these 2 kids will rmb me to even dropped by here to have an early celebration w me

I was just thinking to myself that the most rewarding thing that will ever happen to a teacher is to take some time off their busy schedule to pay their teachers a visit, just a visit & some quality time spent is more than enough for me, don’t need presents, don’t need anything else. With that, I’m satisfied :’)

Happy extended weekend & Selamat Hari Raya to all the Muslim people in this world! 🎊

Apart from the PH that people are enjoying, I’m also v blessed to enjoy the June holidays as well 🙂 #teachers

Well, people think that it’s fantastic that teachers enjoy the different holidays, yes we do, but unlike others, we don’t have annual leave which means, we only can travel peacefully during these school holidays which also means travel costs spike.

On top of that, we don’t enjoy the full holiday. Let’s take June holiday as an example: 1 month of holiday for the kids but for the teachers ...

- the first week of holiday, we return back to school to clean up, training and intensive meetings

- next 2 weeks are our block leave, which means we don’t need to go back to school YAY

- the last week, we return back to school for planning, trainings and more meetings

If not, where u think all the activity sheets, homeworks, lesson plan all come from?

I know there are people who are v envious of teachers who have more than 21 days of ‘annual leave’ bcos of our holidays. But man, y’all gotta think deeper. U really think that we have that full holidays that students get to enjoy? On top of that, we generally start work much earlier than most office people and end work late as well. We often bring work home. Well, I know that at every work environment, there’s a ‘peak’ period where people slog their ass off and OT etc but there’s no ‘peak’ period for teachers bcos guess what, it’s peak period all year long. We only have ‘peak peak’ period. Yet we still need to face parents who have v high expectations and expect their child to know everything in the world - but how much support do they give their child? MINIMUM

All in all, I’ve great respect to all my fellow teachers out there - especially those who taught for many years.

P.S I’m not complaining hahaha just sharing a piece of thought bcos I’m so sick of people not appreciating teachers

Well, cheers! Ending off w a picture w my bbg ❤️

Down w a 38 degrees last afternoon and 39 degrees at night. Felt so horrible. I don’t know how my kids can endure 39 degrees sometimes and still be so active running around 🤦🏻‍♀️ and here I am feeling so shag and doesn’t even want to move. I hate to be sick so damn much. Moreover, a PH 😭😭😭

Blessed w D, who came right after his work to my place where i am wrapped in my blanket like a sushi roll 🍣 his first reaction was “Wa so hot” and I’m like “Am I dying?” And start giving my dying speech to him 😂😂 sometimes I don’t know what am I doing 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

After I got changed, I dragged myself to the doctor 👨‍⚕️ and waited for 2 hours before the doctor sees me omg damn long. But that boyfriend of mine, waited patiently w me and paid so much attention to the sick girl me. :’) so blessed. Reached home at around 9.30pm. I didn’t want to eat so my mum cooked porridge for me while the hangry man helped himself to the table of food after I convinced him not to wait for me.

I’m so blessed :’) ❤️

The things that happened this week is taking a toll on me. There’s so many things that’s screaming in my mind

Im so sick, i’m so tired of everything that happened I need a break. In the first place, i wasn’t even suppose to be here. & there, I have people telling me that I was the one that agree to sign up on this. To be honest, I wasn’t really given a choice was i?

When people are aware that I am facing difficulties, who were really there lending their helping hands despite voicing it out? There are even people telling me that I have handled Y before, I definitely can do it for X. But people fail to understand that X and Y are totally different. & I have explained their difference so many times. I’m so sick and tired of reaching out for help, bcos most of the times I did, nothing much was done.

I just want to give everything up now. Anyway, people don’t really put much hope and ideas on me so, my presence dun really make a difference. Everything will still operate on its own, people will still live their life as how they will. 🙂

Today is the closing deadline for most universities in Singapore & I applied to SUSS and SIT

been hearing so many things about these uni - mainly how tough it is to get enrolled and how strict is the interview etc.

To be honest, I’m living in tremendous stress everyday. It’s like a landmine if I stepped on the wrong tile, it will explode and there goes my study plans. I’m so stressful

Maybe ego (?) or fear of rejection? I’m just too afraid that I will fail in enrolling myself into these uni and tada, no more degree for me. I have to tell myself everyday that it’s ok if i didn’t get chosen for the interview etc. basically, I’m just consoling myself

Can I really do this? I hope I can

Embark my journey of volunteering this morning to a briefing held by Youth Corps

I’m very clueless about what’s going to happen. I’m very afraid as well.

I’m doing this to have a feel on what is it going to be like in the industry of social work to give willingly and never expect anything in return

Not sure what’s going to happen & not sure if I will feel awkward since I’m doing this alone

Went to Sim Lim Square w D to get his 2 monitors

Yeap, that boy needs 2 bcos apparently resolution and etc is so important to him - something I do not appreciate at least at this moment 😂

& patroning there with him cost me $56 - I bought a 20000 worth of xiaomi portable charger at $46. I felt so cheated to be honest bcos the screen says $45 and the charger tagged $49 I had to bargain 🙄 with that shopkeeper whose attitude was very shit urgh

After D is done with his monitors, we went to look for his monitor dual arm. The starving me who skipped breakfast and only had a small bowl of mee sua went around the entire place w him to look for that dual arm and after searching high and low, he finally found that dual arm of his liking.

Oh and the very lucky me, search for hitch while shopping for the dual arm and within seconds, I got it! HOW LUCKY I AM!!!!!

Went back to his place for dinner (finally) and fixed his monitor arms w him.

The very lucky me, got a hitch ride home as well woohoo 🙌🏻 so happy 😁

Term 1 has finally ended (last Friday) and finally a good break for us teachers.

This term is not easy - it’s nerve-wreaking, it’s mentally draining, it’s horrifying but yet above all the negative words, it’s fulfilling, fun and challenging (in a good way)

New skills unlocked ✔️ as well Reaffirmed my heart attitude towards this industry ✔️ Reminded myself why am I doing what I am doing ✔️

And ultimately, I’m very glad to have landed myself here, to do what I really love, to grow and enjoy with the kids under my care daily ♥️

I’m so stressed lately. Stressing about my uni application. Decided to dropped all my other university applications and just focus on 1 - SUSS.

Decided to just go for that bcos that’s really the course I really want to pursue & really want to indulge myself in. I’ve never felt so stressed about getting it - probably bcos my age is catching up 😫

Heard that getting a full time position there ain’t easy. It’s tougher than everyone thought and I’m already losing all my confidence even before applying for it. Oh God. Many people tell me that it should be alright and all but I’m still not confident at all.

Satisfied my craving for BKT at Song Fa BKT last night! It taste sooooo damn good. So much better than the usual Old Street BKT that we usually patron

The soup was peppery but not too much, just nice. Unlike Old Street, their soup was too peppery for me, on the first sip, I usually get choke by their too much of peppery taste.

However, Old Street BKT was the first place where I fell in love with BKT. Bcos D loves BKT, he always request to go but I prefer the herbal kind, so he always gave in to me and eat other things. Till a day where I’m not hungry for dinner, we went Old Street and he ate, while I watched. I tried the peppery soup, oh goodness, it was so peppery, I kept coughing. But the meat was so heavenly. I always thought that BKT serves it with Pig intestines which I’m not a fan of. But I’m wrong.

Slowly, I opened myself up to BKT and crave for it once in awhile. D told me that Song Fa BKT is nicer but pricey and I really wanted to try. Well, eventually I did (yesterday) and I love it so damn much 😍😍😍 I’m definitely coming back for more!

Yesterday was one of the busiest day

In the morning, I had work from 8am - 2pm & D had work too till 10am but he went to gym after work and met me afterwards.

Then we had to head home to shower, change and prep for house visitings - 2 houses

The first, we went to my friend’s place. Then next, we went to his friend’s place and we were only home at 1am.

I was already very tired after we were done with the first house visit - probably bcos of my contacts; it’s making my eyes super dry. So when we reach the next house, I was already zoning out.

When we reach home, I showered first, then him. After I showered, I just crashed on the bed and used my phone to stop myself from dozing off - I wanted to wait for him. When he’s done, he came into the room and asked if I’m hungry 😂😂😂 to be honest, I was. I looked at him and he said, it’s ok, I can cook u just lie here and rest I know you’re very tired. When I’m done, i come in and call u. And I nodded my head. I dozed off almost instantly. Shortly after, he woke me up and tada, my noodles were served.