Sorry for the long ask, you don't have to answer it if you don't want to.
I think I might be demisexual. I've always thought that I was (gay) alloallo but after learning about the difference between aesthetic and sexual attraction... I'm not so sure. Still haven't found a good explanation of the difference between attraction and desire either. I've never related to my aspec friends when they talk about their sexualities.
I've always been interested in sex, but I'm not attracted to most people. I always thought that I just had a specific type, but now I see that I also need a connection to the person. Cruising and one night stands have never appealed to me at all- I don't want to have sex with someone I'm not attracted to. I know it's valid for acespec people to want and enjoy sex, and I do. That kind of intimacy is important to me, and I wouldn't want a relationship without it. I've had romantic feelings without sexual attraction to people before, and I haven't pursued those relationships for a reason. Sex is important to me.
I'm also confused because I am very attracted to my partner physically. When we first met, I thought he was good looking, and I felt romantic feelings for him almost immediately- but I don't think I felt sexually attracted to him until I knew him better. Now, I'm attracted to everything about him. Not just his personality and other secondary things, but to his appearance too. Could I still be demisexual if I am attracted to how he looks? Is that a stupid question?
Being demi wouldn't really change life for me. I'm committed to my partner and he fully accepts me if I am. It doesn't really matter if I wanted him carnally the moment we met or if it took time, right? I know that I don't have to use the label if I don't want to, but if it fits me, that's important to me. So why is it bothering me so much? I've never been upset by questioning my gender or sexuality before now. Is it just because it's new? Is this internalized aphobia?
Hi anon, donāt worry, Iām here to answer asks as best as I can.
The reason why is so hard to find good enough explanations about different kinds of attraction is that ultimately, the specific of the attraction itself, as well as what kind of explanation āclicksā for the one doing the research, heavily depends on the person. Itās frustrating as hell, I know.
We have tagged posts about different kinds of attractions you may want to try and check out, see if thereās something you hadnāt seen yet.
The degree on which someone enjoys sex and sexual interaction is not dependent on how or how often you experience attraction towards people.
What you say overall sounds like demisexuality, since you are attracted to someone you had already formed a connection with.Ā
The fact you are attracted to how he looks is basically a bonus, all kinds of different attractions can be independent from one another, depending on the person.
As for feeling uncomfortable about IDing as Demi, take things easy. I canāt tell you if itās internalized aphobia, or just being uncomfortable at something new you donāt really understand yet.
Regardless, you donāt have to take that label as soon as possible, or ever.
Iād suggest interacting with demi communities specifically (even just lurk) to see whatās up.
Sexuality is fluid, and your comfort comes first.
If youād rather explore the possibility calmly, you can absolutely go for it.
Feel free to send in more questions if you need
Wishing you a nice week <3