I wish I had someone to talk to about how I really feel I feel no one sees me. Every time I’m around people I feel like I’m always watching myself to make sure that i don’t bother anybody by simply being and I hate that. I want to be happier with myself but it’s so hard, I think I might never be able to conquer my past. I just don’t want to live a sad life anymore I want to see the world and all the good things it has to offer instead of just seeing the bad in my life. In all honesty I’m scared for myself I don’t know if I’ll ever be a happy person. Little mishaps in my day throw me off and makes it hard for me to believe people like me. I think everyone who says they like me is lying and secretly wishes I wasn’t around them. I know this is unrealistic because i can’t possibly be the most annoying and unlikeable person on earth but it’s so hard for me to feel otherwise. Maybe I just don’t have the ability to believe in myself. I’m not gonna stop trying though, I just pray that one day I can look back and not even recognize the person I am right now and all of the emotions I’m feeling in this moment.
