Hey There, Delilah

Spravatoooo.

And would you like CBD oil rubs?

I'm currently cocooned under an electric blankie while I lie on a medium sized heating pad.

It's not helping much, so I may need to turn up the heat on both.

I look like shit because my mood is extra terrible and my pain levels are really high.

Plus I don't eat or sleep enough, and I haven't done my skincare routine in a week. 😐

The procedures I just got done have all mostly worn off already because of my EDS.

I need a shit ton of novacaine at the dentist. 👹

You should totally sub to my onlyfans. It's currently 30% off, and I have a few ~20 minute videos coming.

If you're into fat girls trying on tight clothes and leggings...I got you. 😘

My ex-foster mom and I went to see Mandalorian and Grogu today.

I brought my baby with to watch himself on the big screen, and we made a new friend! 🥰

Sweaty look of the day.

I didn't think I'd get very high at spravato today, but it latched it's tentacles onto the inside of my eyelids and pulled me under.

Most of the time I was in a cyberpunk city, but at one point I got a blue screen of death in my brain. 😭

Anyway, I hate summer.

My AC only partially works, and the air can't get to my 100F room.

My driver that has a van with no AC. On a 90F day. 😐

My body doesn't regulate temps very well.

Final order!

I think it's a kind of OK order.

I found stuff I can order from Amazon so I could put money towards the dino nuggets. They are whole wheat omg.

And apparently you can buy bottled water on Amazon, so I'm stupid. I've been rationing water for a week now.

I couldn't find a berry bacon jam, so I NEEDED that. I think it could be good on fried egg sandwiches.

Maybe?

That and the lemon pesto are my only "treats".

I'm obviously very excited for my fruit though.

I'm getting 2 bags of apples, so I should have fruit for ~2 weeks.

Putting together grocery orders stresses me out 👹

I start by adding everything that seems good to me (since I'm currently starving...that's everything), but then I have to pare the order down so it's under $100. With the tip.

It's my one grocery order per month.

So many tempting things. So little money. 😔

I'll probably only keep one of the chicken nuggets, the chicken patties, the eggs and bread for fried and egg salad sandwiches, the milk, the water, and the fruit.

And maybe the lemon pesto because it intrigues me.

I try to do balanced orders with stuff I can eat as easy meals, my beloved fruit, and water.

I aim for 4 \~$25 payments.

And this includes the \~$13 tip.

UGH I HATE THIS SO MUCH MAYBE I SHOULD JUST KEEP STARVING 👹

I might keep one of the protein puddings as well because I'm excited that it's finally a thing in the US. I lived on the that shit in Sweden.

If you have cheap and VERY easy meal ideas lemme know.

Looks of the day.

Got a lumbar epidural. It wasn't fun. 😔

Lol.

If you wanna watch me crash out...

I was finding the link for the pretty bowl I own for someone, and I noticed that it's the exact same price as when I bought it in 2023.

WHICH MEANS IT CAN TOTALLY BE DONE AND PEOPLE ARE JUST GREEDY AS FUCK. 😡

And it's a very high quality bowl for the price even. It's not just a Wish quality product.

Sound on.

Hammy just sliced my face up with his back claw 14 hours before I'm supposed to finally renew my stupid ID that's been expired for over a year. I'm literally so mad I got an instant headache.