Synopsis: โIn a relationship built on unspoken words and fleeting moments, Y/N falls hard for the enigmatic Suna Rintarล, hoping for something deeper beneath his casual demeanor. Their connection grows complicated during a road trip, culminating in a bittersweet romance that promises everything but permanence. When Sunaโs family embraces Y/N as one of their own, their bond is tested, exposing their contrasting hopes and fears. In the end, Sunaโs unwillingness to commit leaves Y/N in painful realizationโshe was just a chapter in his story, one he would inevitably turn the page on.โ
A/n:( Angst & Smut fic! Cunnilingus in the car, Fingering, Bathroom sex, Mirror sex, Based on chappell roan's song โCasualโ )
The sun dips low as you and Suna Rintarล drive down the winding road, the car filled with the soft lull of tires against asphalt and the fading hum of the radio.ย
Outside, the world rushes by in a blur of trees, and the sky blushes into twilight huesโmuted colors that match the mood thatโs slowly settled between the two of you.
It had started so casually between you and Suna. A fleeting touch, lingering glances, an easy conversation one night that stretched into early morning. Casual, just like that. But the truth was, nothing had been casual about it for you since the beginning. Youโd fallen into his quiet allure, the pull of his indifference that somehow always seemed to tilt towards you.
Youโd spent weekends together, some late nights, maybe a holiday or two. But now, as his mother had asked you to join them at their beach cottageโanother invitation you hadnโt expectedโit felt different. Real. Like there were strings attached, and you werenโt sure if either of you wanted to acknowledge it.
โHey,โ you murmur, glancing over at him. He doesnโt look away from the road, fingers tapping idly against the steering wheel. But he hums in response, a low acknowledgment that heโs listening.
โSoโฆ us. What is this?โ You try to keep it light, but your voice wavers, betraying the tension inside you.
He sighs, glancing at you for a brief second before his eyes return to the road. โWhy does it have to be anything?โ
Your heart sinks a little at his words, a leaden weight settling in your chest. Itโs always been like this with himโa series of contradictions. The way he looks at you, sometimes like youโre the only person in the room. And yet, his words, they always pull you back, hold you at armโs length.
โI justโฆ I donโt know,โ you say, struggling to find the right words. โSometimes it feels likeโฆ more, you know? Like weโre not justโฆ casual.โ
โDoes it matter?โ he asks quietly, but thereโs something in his voiceโa crack in his usual guarded tone that catches you off-guard.
You laugh, but itโs hollow. โIt does, to me.โ You look away, the passing landscape blurring into streaks of color through the window. โI just wish I knew what I was to you, Rintarล.โ
Thereโs a beat of silence before he responds, his tone softer than usual, almost contemplative. โYouโreโฆ something to me.โ He clears his throat, and his grip on the steering wheel tightens. โBut I donโt know if I can be what you need.โ
The words sting more than you expected. Thereโs something about the way he says itโlike a wound that never quite healed, a place in him heโs never let anyone touch. And suddenly, youโre angry. Angry at his distance, angry at his hesitation.
โThen why am I here, Rintarล? Why do you keep pulling me in if youโre just going to keep pushing me away?โ
The car slows as he pulls over, cutting the engine. He turns to you, his gaze intense, something dark and raw lingering in his eyes. โBecause I donโt know how to let you go.โ
And then his lips are on yours, desperate, almost feverish, like heโs searching for something he canโt name. Your anger dissolves in the heat of the moment, replaced by a yearning that you canโt ignore, a need to be closer, even if it hurts.
He broke the kiss and without anymore words he fixed your seat so you were slightly laying, He then unbuckled his seat belt, and before you could ask him what is he going to do, he was already on his knees infront of your seat.
You yelped as he suddenly put his cold hands inside your dress skirt, in a swift moment he already removed your panties, He smirked as he saw you were wearing the laced pink panty he really loved.
โR-rinโ you muttered shyly as you look down on him โWe're in the middle of the road we can't-โ you said warning him but he shushes you as he lifts your dress skirt โShh be quiet then.โ he said sternly before ravishing your pussy
You squirm at the sudden contact, you put your right hand to your mouth to muffle your moans and your left hand on his hair, you gripped his hair tightly as he eats you out like a hungry animal.
โRin~โ you whisper-moaned trying not to make a loud noise but the way he eats you makes you wanna moan his name. You threw your head back as you felt yourself closer into orgasm, he felt it too so he put his long thick fingers inside of your pussy, and your eyes rolled back as the pleasure you were feeling grew more intense.
He pumps his fingers in and out of you, fingering you while licking your clit, he continued doing this until you couldn't hold back anymore
โF-fuck Rin Fuck I'm gonna cumโ you cried out in pleasure, hearing your cries he deepens his fingers, he hums looking up on you his face burried in your pussy.
You felt the vibration of his hum and that was the last straw, you felt yourself reach your climax and came in his fingers.
The days pass in a blur after that, the memories of his touch and his words haunting you, lingering in every quiet moment. You find yourself at his familyโs beach cottage soon after, where his mother welcomes you with open arms, her warmth something unfamiliar and almost painful. Itโs as if sheโs seeing you as something permanent in his lifeโan idea that fills you with both hope and dread.
And then, weeks later, thereโs the dinner at his familyโs house, the night where everything unravels.
Sunaโs mother watches the two of you as you sit side by side, her gaze soft and knowing. She smiles, her words gentle, but they cut deeper than she could ever know. โYou two look lovely together,โ she says, her tone warm and inviting.
The weight of her words sinks into you, heavy and suffocating. Lovely together. Lovely, as if you were a real couple, as if this wasnโt just some half-spoken promise that neither of you fully acknowledged. You feel the walls closing in, the words catching in your throat, and suddenly you need to escape.
You mumble an excuse, pushing away from the table and stumbling into the bathroom. Locking the door behind you, you let out a shaky breath, your chest tight as you sink down against the wall. The tears come before you can stop them, hot and silent, slipping down your cheeks as the ache of wanting something you canโt have crashes over you.
Itโs only when you hear the soft click of the door that you realize youโre not alone. Suna stands there, his expression unreadable as he watches you. He doesnโt say anything, just steps closer, his gaze dark and searching.
You expect him to comfort you, to say something, anything, to break the silence. But instead, he kneels in front of you, his hand reaching out to brush a tear from your cheek. And then heโs kissing you, a slow, deliberate kiss that drowns out the pain, the questions, everything. His touch is gentle, as if heโs afraid you might break, but thereโs a desperation there tooโa silent plea, a need that neither of you can put into words
The world blurs around you, the line between whatโs real and whatโs fleeting slipping away. Itโs intoxicating and heartbreaking, and you lose yourself in him, knowing that this moment is all youโll ever have.
He took your hands and guide you in the mirror infront of the bathroom sink,He then make you face the mirror, he was behind you, he then swept your hair to the side kissing your shoulder, you whimpered as him left a wet kiss in the side of your neck.
His hands slowly tracing your body, from you shoulders to your hands and finally his hands finding it's way to your waist, he holds your waist in a gently way as if he's afraid you're gonna break, Then all of a sudden he made you bend down.
His other hand lifted your dress and his other was on the back of your neck, He then unzip his pants, letting out his painfully hard cock. He lined himself in your entrance and without any warning he slammed his thick cock in your wet pussy.
You Moaned and your hands instinctively went to your mouth to prevent yourself from being heard, you remembered that his family was downstairs having a happy dinner and you can not help but feel ashamed because this was their house and you were just a guest but here you were letting their son ruined your insides.
Suna Fucks you into oblivion, his thrust were slow and sloppy but you feel good because he was hitting the spots that made you see stars, His hands grabhed a fist of your hair, he yanked your head up to make you look at yourself in the mirror.
And oh god, you were so ashamed of how your face shows that you were having good, you were in deep pleasure, and he knew it, suna knew it too, you take a look on his face in the mirrpr infront of you, he smirks at you, His pace picking up as he felt himself close.
he bend down too, his chest on your back and both of his hands pinned your hands down onto bathroom sink, his face in the crook of your neck, his cock going deep inside you, he felt your walls squeeze him and he groaned in your neck muttering โFuck don't squeeze me like thatโ
You bit your lip so hard to stop yourself from screaming from how good he fucks you, you can feel him burries his thick cock inside your pussy.
โSuna gonna cumโ you muttered quietly โCum on my dick thenโ he chuckles in your neck, his hot breath tickling you
Just as he said, you groaned as you came in his cock, your back arching against his broad chest as you heaved on heavy breaths trying not to make any loud sound to disturb the family dinner downstairs.
Suna's pace became sloppier as he felt himself cumming inside of you, with a quiet moan he shoot his loads inside of your kissing your back as he emptied his cum in your pussy.
While catching his breat, sunaย slowly pulled his dick outside of you. As he cleaned himself he notice you weren't moving, he saw you staring at yourself in the mirror with a blank expression then he sighs.ย
โCome hereโ he spoke ushering you โLet's shower togetherโ he said still in his usual deadpan expression and cold tone, you were shocked to say the least.ย
โW-what about your mother? she mght think-โ you asked nervously โdon't worry about her, I told her you were in my bedroom restingโ he cuts her off
He didn't know if you heard him but you were in a daze as if you were drowning in a deep ocean of unsaid thoughts, he sighed again, you've been spacing out a lot since the small fight you had in the car.
He didn't know what made you like this, but what he said in the car, he means it. he didn't want to lose but he doesn't know if he wanted more of you, he keeps you closebut never too close.ย
To pull you out of your thoughts, he snaked one of his hands in your waist and pulled you towards him, kissing you in a deep and passionate, his other hand cupping your face.
โWas it casual when you kissed me passionately trying to pull me out from drowning over my miserable thoughts?โ
When you finally pull away, the silence between you is thick with unspoken words. He looks at you, his gaze soft, almost tender. โIโm sorry,โ he whispers, his voice barely audible.
You manage a weak smile, your heart heavy with the truth youโve been trying so hard to ignore. โDonโt be. I knew what this was from the start.โ
He nods, a shadow of sadness flickering in his eyes. โI wishโฆ I wish I could be more for you.โ
You close your eyes, letting the weight of his words settle over you. And in that moment, you realize that he wonโt ever be the person you need. Heโs too afraid of letting you in, too afraid of what he might lose if he does.
The silence stretches between you and Suna long after that night. You drift apart like waves receding from shore, a slow and inevitable separation. The calls become less frequent, the messages shorter, until they stop altogether, leaving only an empty inbox and a quiet ache you carry like a scar.ย
Itโs been weeks since you last saw him, the memories still sharp and vivid, refusing to fade. You keep replaying that night at his familyโs house, his motherโs warm smile, his silence in the car, the way he pulled you close only to push you away again.
And now, as you sit alone in your room, you realize you were right all along: he was always just passing through, slipping out of your life as easily as he slipped in. You find yourself scrolling through old photos, looking for remnants of moments that feel like they were never real. Itโs as if he left nothing behind, no trace except for the hollow ache inside you.
One evening, youโre drawn to the beach, the same stretch of sand where youโd spent that warm afternoon with his family. The waves lap at the shore in the fading twilight, mirroring the last of the light in your heart. You pull your jacket tighter around you, trying to block out the cold, but it seeps in anyway, a biting reminder of everything youโd tried to hold onto but lost.
Thereโs no message, no goodbye, only an absence that weighs heavier with each passing day. You realize heโs already gone, moved on like you were just another moment heโd let slip through his fingers. And yet, part of you still waits, still hopes that he might come back. But he doesnโt.
One night, months later, you hear from a friend that heโs been seen with someone else. Sheโs smiling in the photos, leaning into him, her gaze full of a warmth thatโs achingly familiar. You canโt help but wonder if he looks at her the way he once looked at you, or if sheโs just another fleeting thing heโll one day forget.
As you close the album on your phone, the realization hits you fully: you were always just a passing chapter, a story he never meant to keep. And even though you knew this was how it would end, the pain of it feels like a wound that will never truly heal.
You look out at the ocean, letting the waves carry away the last of your hopes. And in that quiet, lonely space, you finally let him go.
