user robin

"every time she disappeared, i thought it would be the last time i ever heard, see, know her"

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"if i end up dying to save you, i will be fine with that. that doesnt matter."

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to write is to turn fantasy into reality

to write is to live in a fantasy

kesehatan: maaf rahasia

mental: maaf rahasia

mood: maaf rahasia

kemudian bertanya-tanya apakah hidupnya blio ini dramatis banget atau emang blio aja yg suka mendramatisir sesuatu sih?

then i came into a conclusion that, well idup kan emang dramatis, manusianya juga. we're all dramatic in our own way, for whatever reason.

well, i guess his problems mostly come from his own head and his expectation/perception of society. thus, it affects the way he sees himself and the world. and this leads to his alienation tendency which may come across as overdramatic at times.

pas awal baca ini ngerasa kayak, anjrit ini orang kenapa dah masalah gaada tp diada-adain???? kyk??? man????

trus i realized, kl gw juga sering gitu, insecure yg gaada tp diada-adain, mikir kl semua orang purposely emang mau jahatin gue pdhl maybe they didnt meant to, and yada yada.

tapi itulah pointnya, orang yg idup ikutin standar manusia normal gaakan pernah ngerti dan akan selalu beranggapan bahwa oba yozo dramatis, padahal pada dasarnya kita semua menderita tapi gapernah punya keberanian aja buat mengekspresikan penderitaan ini itu yg terjadi karena takut dianggep freak or dramatis, just like what i thought first when i read this book.

youll understand more about his work after you read his biography.

loving & losing

remembering & grieving

the departed & the living

the could've-beens,

i keep telling you people how to be present and appreciate the moment. so i did, and i live my life as regularly. tp gw anxious aja gitu... i don't feel like i belong anyplace... anywhere... being surrounded by like-minded peers.. or to experience something in a higher frequency yang benar2 fit my true callings.

i frequently become lost in the concept of self. i have a big dream, but am i capable of achieving it? but then again.. you will never miss out on what's meant for you, right? trust the timing, right? the universe is preparing something greater than my dream, right?

i'm prepared to attract what is truly meant for me, as i have learned my lesson throughout my life.

may God prepare me for what comes ahead. i embrace it joyfully and claim it with blessings.

gw suka ngomong "ngejar apaansihh khawaannn?" and now i have my answer. i crave a sense of comfort.