gross girl

i’m so chud and anti social bruh i genuinely only have the worst man ever in my single slot roster Why did the dude i liked in high school have to be a rapist Why was i a fat anorexic cutter weirdo in hs Why am i a grown adult that can like go out and do things but doesn’t Why do i get bored of hanging out with people Why do i pretend to be someone im not Why do i have no self Why do i want to fuck him again because this time i’d threaten the ever loving fuck out of him to do what i want because like thank you for giving me the ultimate manipulation tool I literally cannot fathom having sex with a dude that isn’t a fucking gigachad with huge muscles that calls me his little sister Like ohhhhhhhhhhhhh my godddd it’s over Imgonna hit my vape and stay up until 8am

i keep having dreams about going thru his phone and finding all this fucked up shit like doing that irl genuinely had to have traumatized me and i will forever resent this stupid mf and now im not gonna fucking spend 50 cents to send a message to him and i’m not accepting the collect call from his fucking jail and FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOUUUU i cant. take this i am a little girl u can’t do this to me and i won’t let u like i don’t want this to be a life experience for me so im not gonna let it happen

guys i just took my first jail phone call from my criminal e situationship genji main big brother

he’s going to basically jail again like what kind of men do i get involved with how did i get here and i have such guilt over allowing him to contact me again and entertaining it like wtf is wrong with me u guys don’t even understand this is something i can’t even tell my closest friends i’ve known since childhood that im talking to him again and he keeps calling me all these sweet things and shit and it makes me sick to my stomach like i don’t want u to be my prison boyfriend i don’t even want you YOU CANT GIVE HEAD !!!! Like that’s all bro . Anyways should i be like i’ll love you forever big brother before he gets hauled off to his detention camp just to troll and literally cement myself in his mind forever LOL even tho i dont mean it like trust me i do not mean it

he keeps trying to remind me of when we saw each other and he tried to make a sexual joke and i was just like nah bruh like if i really tell him that i think he’s terrible at sex and didn’t give me any pleasure then i’m the asshole but like damn i let u fuck me without feeling good and i’m still here like holy shittt im so pathetic

he called me n said he missed me n wants to keep talking to me but get this it’s just cuz he’s scared he’s gonna go back to jail my life isn’t real but idc i really need the attention rn

hmmmm white trash land where the dixon family throws a party for fourth of july cuz theyre americans and the trailer neighbors have to sit through the uncomfortable time of night where their 2 hosts are drunk playing with the hose and drench their sister until her little tank top that's actually one of theirs is all see through and how they start chasing her around, eventually just scooping her up and throwing her around between each other then merle gives her a kiss on the head and daryl slaps her ass as they go tell her to get changed but good god do they throw down on the barbecue

wait and i changed my blog up new pfp and header thank uuuu

looked at pictures my friends took at the beach and i understand now why im so unlovable and have always felt unfeminine im big as a house

all i can think about is how he called me fucked up in the head now Lol

fuck i just read my brother daryl fic dudeeee i ws rlly onto soemthing like ufckkkk someone continue for me