diego!!

Interests : MY BOYFRIEND AUGHHH 💙💙, SPONGE BOB!!! I’m currently rewatching it from s1!! TSHD, SK8, Goodbye Eri, Junji Ito, Mob psycho, ATHF, horror, Halloween animatronics / props!! My favorite is The Necromancer by scare factory!! Musicals, drawing, decorating, writing, movies, furries, animal bones + wet specimens, fashion, toys, film / photography, biking, walking.

Music : Pierce the veil, FOB, CSH, MCR, DGD, flyleaf, My upside down, Picture me broken, P!ATD, hail the sun, Malcolm Todd, Sukkubys, Hozier, Fiona Apple.

This blog is dedicated to just talking about my day, hobbies, and recovery !! Expect to see talks about my boyfriend (often referred to as Macky, Malcolm, or other pet names (˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵)), drama, progress or relapse, my interests I’ve listed, or just feelings. I plan to start a few hobbies as summer starts and start to save money, I want to move out asap!!!

I’m always happy to make friends and socialize!! I lack a lot of communication in person which is another reason I’ve made this blog. Please moot!! I do f4f if you’re not odd!!

Dis me btw ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜

DNI: Basic DNI, HEAVY nsfw blogs, pro-ed. I block freely so there’s not much to put here!

BYI : I’m socially awkward and nervous at times, I love making friends though! I can accidentally leave people on read, miss social cues, and overshare at times. Just let me know if something has bothered you! I do struggle with my mental health and there will be posts about it at times. I’ll try not to make it daily, but in the end this is my blog.

I used to heavily be on the side of, ‘there’s no recovery for me, there is no happiness for me, I can get worse and be okay with it’. And it was a horrible mindset and horrible place for me. I was severely depressed, I was taking any substance I could get my hands on, I was barely alive half the time.

And I was SO tired. Because I was never trying to BE healthy in any sense. And I wondered why when I “tried” to be happy I wasn’t. It’s because I ate like shit, I slept like shit, I sat on my ass all day. I never attempted to do any hobbies, I just would sit and think “ok I’ll be happy now”.

You can’t just BE happy, you have to work for it, and the work pays off, days get easier, life gets easier. You get happier. And you win!

I’m still depressed, I still struggle with different issues. But at the end of the day I’m actually happy instead of soaking in my sadness. Sadness wasn’t my home, it was just house I could ‘live’ in.

I just wanted to talk about being happier I guess, even through struggle. I’m quite tired, I’ll probably text my boyfriend and go to sleep! I love you all !!!