Troppo giovane per combattere

The moment I heard the roar of the engines & saw the plane quickly approaching the runway. When I saw his strong stride & composure as he emerged from a sea of camo & knew it was him. The moment he finally saw me & smiled.. & I stuck my tongue out teasing him like always. When they dismissed the soldiers to reunite with their loved ones & I desperately maneuvered through a crowd of people to get to my love. The moment we found each other all at once & he lifted me into the air hugging & kissing the distance away never wanting to let go. When the long months of imagining that exact moment & how it couldn’t even compare to having your favorite person in the whole world safe & in your arms. The moment I thought that his bright eyes & smile were no longer on a screen or in a picture but right there in front of me & it’s the most mesmerizing, wonderful sight in the entire world. When he told me he loved me so much & kissed my face & my heart nearly burst out of my chest. The moment I got to witness him walking into our house for the first time & see his relief set in. When Thor got to see Daddy again & didn’t know how to handle it. The moment I got to see him get excited over driving a car. When I got excited to hold his hand at the grocery store. The moment he was sitting in our living room for the first time & I had to tell myself it wasn’t just another vivid dream. When he fell asleep I had to tip-toe to bed because it wasn’t just me anymore & I told myself I could tip-toe at night forever for that man. The moment I woke up in his arms feeling so warm & protected & I could breathe so freely. When I realized that there is so much ahead of us & I’m so glad we chose each other for this journey. & now the moment I write what it feels like to have my husband back from Afghanistan after 9 months of him being gone & I didn’t even try to hold back the tears. There are no words in any language that can accurately describe the amount of unfathomable joy & gratitude that overflows from inside of me. I don’t even know how to capture or begin to express how immense & beautiful all the little things in this life are. They’re so dear to me & they’re so very important with my husband. Distance is extremely, painfully, exhaustingly tough, but man we got through it & we got through it well & I can’t stop thanking God for the over abundance of strength & grace & love & everything that He gave us to get through. I’m literally beaming & I’ve never been more proud or amazed in my entire life. A bold statement, but a true one. Annnnd gosh….For all the ridiculously amazing family & friends that NEVER let me feel alone. I really can’t handle this. It’s all too much. I am overwhelmed. I love so deep & I’m feeling my heart swell. Welcome home Sgt. We’ve got so much life to live together. ❤️

I'm afraid, I'm afraid you aren't going to love me as much as you did when we last saw each other.

Play with my hair, rub my back, give me small kisses, say sweet things to me, and I'll be the best little spoon ever asleep in your arms