will you still love me

#hawaiiyem in "Assassination"

And #hjwljj in 2017 filming "Along with the gods"

To be honest it's not about your art, its just about how small of a fandom youre in. I mean, i only knew 3 hjmljj shippers and got only 2 likes when i uploaded a new world fanart. haha

Just wanna say that back when i was still in the hjmljj movies fandom, i always stalk your account for new world fanarts🥺im not russian so i used translation in your hjmljj fanfictions too😭😭i was so deep into ray and ilnam!

I switched to a new fandom now, but still, i still receive less than 10 likes because my dumb ass is in a small fandom AGAIN.. but honestly, im deep into this hyperfixation that i only now do the arts for myself, writing down the scenarios that keep on replaying in my head, so i dont care about the likes anymore XD

hehe im your twitter moot but ill stay anonymous cuz im shy :P

Thank you you kind soul🥹💓 the truth is when someone else uploads hjmljj fanart people adore it and cry with happiness when i do it it just viewed and not reacted to at all. People don't care about my art not about hjmljj, hjmljj is loved by millions and that's a good thing

Bad thing is that i realize that nobody needs my drawings, they see them and scroll further bit even giving it a sec to look at. I'm feeling abandoned and rejected and it's upsetting because i cant leave jj and hjmljj i love them with all my heart, the more it makes me depressed with how my works are received in the fandom.

Im superglad you read the fics and liked them, thank you!🥹 judging by kudos nobody else does:'/ that is why i dont try to write them anymore