I got to talking with Dani. It was a good conversation, let me just preface that. Anyways we were relaxing together, she’s been staying with me cause she’s had some family stuff happening with her Grandfather, I’m just afraid she’ll get to a dark place if she’s left alone.
Well she happened to ask if I wanted more kids, and of course I answered honestly. I told her I wasn’t sure, I mean when my ex and I got pregnant with James, I never expected to have children period. It wasn’t like we were actively trying, we never saw a fertility doctor or anything along those lines, it was just a night that we were horny and it happened.
Nor did I not want children, I am good with kids, I like kids, I love my nieces and nephews, but I never saw myself having kids, especially when I was close to 40. I always was under the illusion if it happened, it would happen earlier in life, like my 20′s, but it never did, so I kind of gave up on the idea of being a Father.
Her question was valid, I’m not disregarding it, but I just shared with her, I wasn’t against the idea if things happened to progress with us like they have then I would be okay with having more kids, but down the line, I’m not anxious to have a baby anytime soon.
