𝖉𝒶𝖓ℊ𝖊𝓇𝖔𝓊𝖘 𝖌𝒶𝖒ℯ

i love you guys.

this makes me emotional and i’m expressing it.

yay, space!

i got us both ice creams.

hey [name], check me out.

how much of that did you see?

hold my ice cream.

why are you getting emotional?

let’s go.

hold my hand.

stay with me, [name].

shredding waves is much more dangerous than people realize.

you’re very brave.

you should heal up in no time.

can i come to your house tonight?

i don’t have anything big planned.

you should stop by.

so cool.

this is a real rager.

this night is just perfect.

you look so beautiful, [name].

this is the best day ever.

do you guys ever think about dying?

i don’t know why i just said that.

i’m just dying to dance.

you can go now.

i thought i might stay over tonight.

i’m actually not sure.

i don’t want you here.

[name] is just a really good friend.

right as always.

i love you too.

i’m definitely not thinking about death anymore.

i just fell.

stop it, [name].

what’s cookin’, good lookin’?

i’ve never seen that before.

can you, you know, fix them?

is that a problem?

what is that?

you’re a bummer.

i don’t want to.

best if you not think about it too much.

how do i get back?

don’t overthink it.

i believe in you.

are you scared?

i bet you’re scared.

i just don’t want to leave.

i’m trying to find reasons not to leave.

please stay.

i’m going to miss you guys so much.

what bird am i thinking of?

i’ll be back in no time.

what are you doing here?

i’m coming with you.

you’re just going to slow me down.

let’s do this.

i just need to clear my mind so i can think.

i hate when people think. i get so bored.

the faster i figure it out, the faster we get to go home.

what am i supposed to do?

go for a walk or something.

by myself? really?

don’t go far.

you’re so beautiful.

this is bad. this is really bad.

this is serious.

i feel amazing.

just don’t get in trouble.

what are you doing?

everyone really likes me and thinks i’m pretty.

i’m supposed to help you and make you happy.

i haven’t thought about you in years.

get back in the car.

are you kidding me?

thanks for the ride.

you’re safe here.

what is this place?

you look different.

get in. get in now.

how did this even happen?

i’ve been a little lonely lately.

i got sad and weird.

can you blame me for wanting to have a little fun?

the real world is forever and irrevocably messed up.

i love women.

it’s complicated.

hate is a strong word.

i’m wide awake.

where did you learn to drive like this?

you look so pretty.

don’t look at me.

what have you done?

what are you wearing?

don’t call me baby.

you failed me.

you can’t do this.

literally and figuratively watch me.

how’s it feel? it is not fun, is it?

i never wanted anything to change.

that’s life.

that’s terrifying.

i don’t want that.

please just leave me.

so, you’re just going to give up?

i almost felt bad for you.

this is the lowest i’ve ever been. emotionally and physically.

i’m [name]’s buddy.

all his clothes fit me.

yeah, well, i was wrong.

you have to try.

even if you can’t make it perfect, you can make it better.

i’m weird and i’m dark and i’m crazy.

we’re going back.

i’ll never get out of here.

i don’t deserve this.

i’m just so tired.

here, let me show you.

what if he doesn’t like me anymore?

i’m ready to be your long term distance low commitment casual girlfriend, if you’ll still have me.

could you just hold on for one second?

i don’t know. i’m gonna have to think about that.

it’s okay if you’re crying.

i think i owe you an apology.

i’m really sorry i took you for granted.

i just don’t know who i am without you.

i look so stupid.

this isn’t the answer.

you have to figure out who you are without me.

maybe all the things that you thought made you you aren’t really you.

oh, that’s nice.

i’m not in love with [name].

what do you want?

i’m not really sure where i belong anymore.

i’m not really sure what i’m supposed to do now.

i don’t think i’m really good at anything else.

you don’t need my permission.

i can’t control you.

feel free to change pronouns, etc!

LOVE ME DEAD

‘ love me cancerously. ’ ‘ kill me romantically. ’ ‘ you’re awful. i love you. ’ ‘ you know just how to hold me. ’ ‘ when your edges soften, your body is my coffin. ’ ‘ love me dead. ’ ‘ you’re an office park without any trees: corporate and cold, gushing for gold. ’ ‘ does the fun ever start? ’ ‘ how’s your new boy? does he know about me? ’ ‘ you’ve got the mark of the beast. ’ ‘ you’re born of a jackal. you’re beautiful. ’

DRUNKEN LAMENT

‘ self-loathing is quaint. ’ ‘ you’re gone and i’m lost. ’ ‘ you said “forever.” ‘ ‘ tell me, why can’t you stay? ’ ‘ i’d ride in your pocket all day, but i just don’t fit. ’ ‘ i’ve been drunk since saturday, without you, without restraint. ’ ‘ i’m starving for words that would ration my sadness away. ’ ‘ you were the mermaid for me, till one day you found your feet, leaving me in this god-awful bottle, a model of heartache and grief. ’

PLEASE

‘ take me over. ’ ‘ please save this for me. ’ ‘ i’ll come back for you, love, i promise to. ’ ‘ my love will burn, and my heart will stay. ’ ‘ i’ll be gone by first light, last chance, hold on tight until then. ’ ‘ i lie awake and memorize your face as you sleep next to me. ’ ‘ the road looms lonely, but i will not fail. ’

TOPEKA

‘ i found god in a catalytic converter in topeka on a monday night. ’ ‘ i taste blood every time i think of summer. ’ ‘ i’m waiting desperately to get out of town. ’ ‘ you’ve been known to obsess over the future. ’ ‘ do you think you’ll get away from the past? ’ ‘ consider what you might have found. ’ ‘ every saint has a past. every sinner has a future. ’ ‘ you know what keeps me hanging around. ’ ‘ from here on, you can count on all things going the way they must’ve from the start.  ’ ‘ all you feel is the current flowing through you and seizing your infected heart. ’

LAKE PONTCHARTRAIN

‘ rest your soul and feed your brain. ’ ‘ you’ll get to see everything the water can be. ’ ‘ the rain was coming down. ’ ‘ it was the kinda night that makes you think the whole world’s going to hell. ’ ‘ wade to where the shallows break. ’ ‘ the interstate was flooded. ’ ‘ bad move, in retrospect. ’ ‘ come back! ’ ‘ there were no bodies; i’ve got none to hide. ’

SUCH AS IT ENDS

‘ i’ve been losing sleep for days. ’ ‘ love, such as it ends, breaking the hearts that wouldn’t bend, closes the doors you used to listen through. ’ ‘ we’ll start again. ’ ‘ in the end, i’ll be with you. ’ ‘ you’ve been burning up for days. ’ ‘ you know they can’t all be saved. ’ ‘ i’ve been vacant for so long, but you were there. ’ ‘ you look so tired now. just please, love, let me take it on my shoulders. ’ ‘ we might make it home. ’

MUTINY BELOW

‘ put me in my proper place. ’ ‘ i’m not the one for you, but you’re here now. ’ ‘ can you come in? ’ ‘ you made me feel alive again. ’ ‘ you made me feel alive again. i wish we’d never met. ’ ‘ i finally let go and learned to live without you. ’ ‘ there were nights when i was sure your love was all i had. ’ ‘ we’ll work it out tomorrow. ’ ‘ let me go. ’

STREETLIGHTS

‘ when the streetlights come on, the pooling night is leveed aside and pressed in twilight against our two rooms. ’ ‘ i’ll see you tonight. ’ ‘ the pavement is aching, cicadas are crying, the wine-colored air is breathing thoughts through your hair, breezing to me, leading me there. ’ ‘ i come alive as the shadows parade. ’ ‘ my hot summer blood comes in floods and in waves. ’ ‘ i’m not longer afraid of what you’ll say. ’ ‘ streetlights will keep watch over me: they flicker like stars. ’ ‘ the secrets carefully kept inside run the streets red. ’ ‘ now, there are no words, only the glow in our wires. ’ ‘ our lips set the sun. ’ ‘ i’ll never leave you. ’

GO-GETTER GREG

‘ you must be new, i guess.  at least, you’re new to me. ’ ‘ i saw you unpacking your car so i said to myself “maybe i should help her out,” since we’re neighbors now, and all the other people here are elderly and probably a little stand-offish, and i’ve got nothing to do, and whatnot… by the way, i live in 207, my name is ______ . ’ ‘ i’m a go-getter guy with a gun on my hip. i’m just searching for that someone to be firing it. ’ ‘ i’ve narrowed down the field and i’m taking a glance, and i’ve say you’ve got a pretty good chance to be my girlfriend. ’ ‘ didn’t mean to sneak up on you there. ’ ‘ you could come over tonight, i’ll be watching cop dramas, smoking fatty-fatties. ’ ‘ i really think you could use a guy like me in your life, looking after you. ’ ‘ i’d never leave you along. ’

THE HORROR OF OUR LOVE

‘ i’m a killer. ’ ‘ i’ve murdered half the town, left you love notes on their headstones. i’ll fill the graveyards until i have you. ’ ‘ i can smell your softness. ’ ‘ love, i’d never hurt you. ’ ‘ oh, the horror of our love; there was never so much blood pulled through my veins. ’ ‘ i wake in terror. ‘ ‘ i’m your servant. ’ ‘ break my skin and drain me. ’ ‘ that ancient language spoken through fingers, the awful edges where you end and i begin. there’s catastrophe in everything i’m touching. ’ ‘ you’ll die like angels sing. ’ ‘ you’re a ghost, love. ’ ‘ you are a dream among the sharks: beautiful and terrifying. ’ ‘ we dance in dark suspension. ’ ‘ bury me in the ocean floor beneath you where they’ll never hear us scream. ’

SCREAM, SCREAM, SCREAM

‘ a man is many things; let’s count them all tonight. ’ ‘ there’s nothing catchy about the life of a saint. ’ ‘ if i scream about a good man’s life, would you ever stop and listen? ’ ‘ sing it sad and sweet. ’ ‘ say goodnight, goodbye, love: in the morning, you will see. ’ ‘ it’s breaking me down to tears. ’ ‘ i’d rip my eyes out for you. ’ ‘ i’ll pull you close. ’ ‘ it’s so dark tonight. ’ ‘ would it make you cry? ’ ‘ would you finally see that all your lives are moments? ’ ‘ all your words and closeness keep you here and human. ’ ‘ do you think they’ll ever care? ’

IN SPACE