“I Wanna Drink Until I Ache”

The guilt of being the daughter who loves her family but breathes easier when she’s far away

the urge to ask are you mad at me when we talk slightly less than usual

“theyre being so nice:)… its cus they secrectly hate me and think im pathetic and the only reason they talk to me is out of pity they actually think im insane and manipulative and a horrible person and a liar” -me on a daily basis

hey if you catch yourself obsessively thinking about someone in a way that is disrupting your peace & natural routine from day to day such as expecting that text back, missing them etc...then it's time to take a moment, deep breaths & converge all that energy into the self. do an activity that takes you out of your mind & into the body and environment around you. do a workout, cook a meal, light a candle & journal, take a shower, take a walk, talk to people, make use of your 5 senses. do anything that reminds you that there is much more to the self & life. remind yourself that you should be central. remind yourself that it doesn't mean the other person is not important if your brain is turning mean. pls choose this over and over again if you are struggling with this kind of anxiety. create a life & be obsessed with it.

mind tired, heart tired, soul tired.