You caught me in a bad timing. I’m actually feeling fed up right now. Ha. But I guess I just let myself feel whatever I have to feel. I’m sad right now, and I just let myself feel sad. Because if I keep pretending that I’m okay, then i’m never going to be okay.

D&A 

I’m finally on vacation and working on my backlogs! Last 3 weeks consisted of finals, an advocacy campaign which I grew very attached to, and intramurals. I joined football and after 5 years of wanting a jersey, I finally have my own! Haha. 

I’m always on the hunt for events that involve music and arts although I never get the chance to attend because the locations are always far from where I live  Luckily though, through the magic of tagging and facebook, I came to know this event organized by people who are lover of arts & typography, locally made products, good food etc. plus it’s just in Ayala Alabang! I just knew I couldn’t let this pass.

The Block Party: A weekend of food, art and music at the park.

Dear self,

ANDY X TRACY

I remember trying to make a wishlist for last christmas, and for my 18th, and for other occasions.. But I rarely have enough to put on the list! That's why I never published any wishlist. Weirdly though, at 1 in the morning, I attempted to make another one. And I guess i'm pretty successful? 

The days have passed and Christmas is just around the corner (3 days1!! WHAT?!) My boyfriend never fails to say straight into my face how I want too many things. And I don't see anything wrong with that! Basically, I don't expect all these ^ from anyone, it's just a matter of keeping track of what I want, what to save for and just so I could publish another post. I am quite honestly happy with whatever is given to me ♥♥♥ Okay, done with the blabbering. Here goes:

1. Floppy felt hat - I've been lusting over these for half a year now, but I never get myself one cause the ones from Topshop are the nicest yet it cost 2k so nope, no thanks. I don't want to spend 2,000 for a hat. So I guess I gotta keep searching for a cheaper floppy hat! Love how it adds sophistication to any outfit.

2. Mid-heeled Combat boots - I can't believe I've been obsessed with combat boots for 5 years already. I already got rid of my first combat boots I got from Korea. The one I'm using right now was given to me by my mom which she purchased at Japan.  I can't wait to get a new one and a mid-heeled combat boots would be puuuurfect.

3.  Alita Crop Top from Nastygal - okay i've been lusting over white off shoulder tops for quite a while now and I still havent found the perfect one. My bohemian dreams!

4. Adidas Gazelle og Farm floral print - my boyfriend always influences me when it comes to shoes. He's been collecting NBs, and now he's lookin at Adidas. I gave him a pair for his birthday and now I want one for myself too. Specifically this Gazelle. My pairs are always black or white. Too safe. That's why I am lusting over this pair. Its daring yet subtle.

5. A trip to Pinto Art Museum - I could have put up a lot of trips in this list but this one tops all of it. Ever since I first saw it on krpayong's instagram, I've been dying to visit this gallery. My cousins and I planned a trip but it never actually pushed through because of school.

6. GoPro Hero4 - MORE OF A GOAL FOR 2015, ACTUALLY. 

And if youve noticed, the only thing I really want for Christmas or 2015 is IGGY AZALEA. LOL just kidding! I'm just wishing Philippines would be part of her world tour for next year!!! AND I WISH IM NOT BROKE BY THAT TIME. I love Iggy. Huhu. 

My cousin and I have been constantly bugging my sister to teach us the basics of make up for months! And it finally pushed through yesterday since we had nothing to do due to the suspension of classes. 

We were tasked to take down notes as well! Haha. She taught us the basics, daytime to nighttime look and how to take care of the skin as well.

Here's Rochie, our guru and I learning how to contour! Haha

Now here's my finished look! Day time look. After this one, Diana taught us the easiest way to achieve the smokey eye.

Here's my smokey eyeee! Rochie went for the neutral colours and as for me... I like bold and daring ones. 

Rochie did a great job with her smokey eye and winged eyeliner! 

THE VERY PROUD STUDENTS! Finally! I'm so happy I gained a lot of knowledge about something i've always wanted to learn. Its very important for me to know the basics of make up. I usually perform and I'm just meh, dont wanna do my make up since I just might mess up! Also comes in handy since I do shoots as well. Now that I know where to put darker shades of foundation, how to properly put eyeshadow and all that shizzz, I am very excited to try to do my own make up very soon.

My 2 week break from school was a mix of unfortunate and exciting experiences. But it was more of the latter. Although I spent a lot of nights stressing myself out and overthinking, I tried my best to equally face and escape my problems.

Facing problems are never easy, but I've learned and accepted the fact that although it might be heartwrenching to experience these challenges, these are here for a reason. And that is to make me wiser and stronger. Problems, ironically, also made me optimistic. I have and will always live by the latin phrase Semper ad Meliora. Whenever I feel down and lonely, I always remind myself that it's just a phase. It will pass. Better things are going to happen. 

But I also tried to escape. Instead of overthinking and locking myself in a room waiting for nothing, I used my energy for a better cause. This sembreak, I spent a lot of time with my bestfriend. This was one of it. 2 am. Roads. A camera. And good food. 

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I have to admit, I haven't been feeling okay. And i've been constantly wanting to escape, to go out and to free my mind from all the thoughts that have been bothering me. So this was one of my attempts. It was 5 in the afternoon, I was just about to take a bath when I asked my best friend and if we could go somewhere. And she agreed. We walked around our place, we tried to go to this cafe where i'd always get my dose of tacos, but we weren't feeling the place. It wasnt same as before. So we tried this new place.

The place wasnt filled with tissues with written notes from customers, cute random papers and photos, stuff you usually see in a hidden cafe haven. It was the kind of cafe that was minimalistic, clean and simple. 

I loved how they presented their food, I really wasnt expecting that! I was looking forward to the usual waffle with an ice cream on top. And im glad it wasnt like that! Also, the food is really affordable! So we're definitely coming back. I already told my mom and my aunts about this, and I hope we visit soon.  

Tricia's Pre-debut shoot. My mom asked me to tag along so I did. This was shot somewhere in Tagaytay. I was a bit hesitant at first but oh god i'm glad I did this. I miss shooting so much! 

Messy liners, glittered sweater, flashing lights, and endless laughters. It's always a party.

Its that time of the year i'm faced with a hundred papers and a quiz almost everyday. The only thing I want to do is to go witness a sunset, hear the clashing of the waves, blur my eyes as we go on a road trip to make my own bokeh, be warm and sing along whilst roasting marshmallows and just be free and feel alive. 

Here's a playlist which contains songs I could just daydream to and wish I was drifting to someplace but here.

Let's get lost:

Weekend - Priory

The Wild Life - Vacationer

Rip tide - Vance joy

What you know - Two Door Cinema Club

Big jet plane - Angus & Julia Stone (Adam G Remix)

On Top of the World - Imagine Dragons