sunsets , the smell of books , realising that i am so alive , being transported to fantasy lands , talking about things i love , peaceful sleep , the sky
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officially logging out of this account and @violetvines for the unforeseen future. if i never return, consider this an abandoned page online that people can still access. thank you for everything! to all my moots, i love you all.
if you want to find me, my last "active" blog will be @strcwbevvy
and as my final few words, i want to end on a very hopeful and whimsical note: i am sending whoever reads this so much love and i hope we live happy happy lives filled with joy and laughter. love always! - vivi
currently reading: nothing (in a reading slump oof) but i was in the midst of the cruel prince before! (tcp did not give me the reading slump ok it was life)
currently watching: the fragrant flower blooms with dignity 🌸
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Literally gonna start sobbing don't do me like this 😭😭😭 I love an appreciate you too, friend 🥹🫶
I gotta call out my beloved mooties 💜 @chancloud8, @brbwritingfanfic, @lazyfacecowboy, @thatgirlangelb, @sh0dor1, thank you all for talking to me and letting me yap and supporting me so much all the time 🥹 You make my world a brighter place, and I'm so glad to know you 💜💜💜💜💜
@abovethemoon333 @morairtea221 @identitycroissant-tm @rosemelodyshah @oxythemoronisback-deactivated20 @apazwtsn @dragonoftheshadows @i-eat-rusty-nails @br35ch @do--not--you-dare and all the other moots of mine i forgot the names of <3
@shenanigan42 @pixelchasm @mokabom @justcallmedom31 @thesightofthestarsmakemesmile @the-holy-ghost-offical @sentientbisexualflag @slowwalkingbisexualgirl @southasiandisaster @coquette-corpsie @cranberry-branflakes @im-on-earth-dipshit @im-the-dead-girl-in-the-pool @auddieee @ash-cherryblossom @a-dam-tris-prior-fan @do--not--you-dare (i know u just tagged me but u deserve extra love coz ur amazing and ty for the spamlikes)
Literally all my moots here y'all are great but to name a few...
@immadatdisney2 @i-put-the-hyper-in-hyperfixated @thatboleyngirl77 @that-one-introvert-theater-kid @rain-rains @theshadowyalchemist @pal-the-theater-jester @theoretically-writing-fics @alliterationless-andyxox @humblefryingpan @dragon-lover444 @hugosaysfuckyou @milo-nelles @ineedmorevat7kinmylife @cabin13winion @viddles-is-a-nerd @toasty1snake andddd anyone else I missed because ik I don't interact with some of you that much but you're still cool :)
I know I've either met some of you recently or don't talk to you much, but I still really care about you guys and think about each and every one of you quite often, actually, and how I wish I could talk to you again/ more. But, uh, yeah :3
honestly gonna tag a ton of my moots I know we don’t talk but you guys are so lovely
@zombie-virus @toothintheeyesurgery @auroratheicerain @theshadowyalchemist @gaydeadkid (counting you as a moot bc you were so sweet when we talked) @ceriatelier @the-heart-anon1 @needles-pines @mrwilliamsherlockscottholmes @ribbitingconversation @1jackmerridew
HELLO WHAT ME TWICE????? HI?????? violently sobbing AS we speak
you guys are all peak uhuhuhuh
@uhmguysiatetheconch @toothintheeyesurgery you both tagged me but you're peak get tagged again
@knizuu @starlydarling @zombie-virus i interact with you guys a lot too you guys are super awesome cool yayayay
uhh there's probably people i forgor to tag forgive me i'm tired..... you're all so cool I LOVE MY MUTUALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HECK I GOT TAGGED BY THREE DIFFERENT PEOPLE TYSM 🥹
well darn i’m gonna tag a bunch of people @msfisherot @knizuu @captainvostok @deceitful-circus @t0mmmy @altonate-universe @mikeru6 @mccall-me-maurice @the-heart-anon1 @lemongooose @girlkisser-official @hetslop @littleguyfromglasgow @ribbitingconversation @puffy-peachy
@wiltingtu1ips @axithebucket @dawn-but-different @altu-caeruleummar @lunathetunaaa @yourlocalavian @solspotted @iicor @ellie-star love you guys to death <3
@ghoststory342/@ghoststorybutonadifferentgoogle @you-aim-you-fire @starisgreek @wilt-the-guy @cynoph0bia @allthegoodusernamesaretakenohno @neptunes-r1ngs @mentally-ill-loser-rants @thomasisctommy @confused-93 @sg-se @starry-slime-eyes @weevilxp @0nesimplebug @x5xcattonx5x @skyroselynn @lucky1013 @his-perfect-blue @wrenthewriterishere @laralvjypeak @anerdgummycluster @2karma-exe5 + ANY OF MY OTHER MOOTS THAT I FORGOT TO TAG!!!! <3 none of you have to reblog btw :}
WAHH???? TYSM MOOTIE ILY TOO <33333
@crypticgoose3 @solarexe @sillylime @fruittriobrainrott @redcat-anomaly @aliensatemysocks @jel-e-ton @ultidreamer104 @crow-human @buzzycrow @witchwithwords2115 @toastbones @shinycr0w @lavendertortoise12 and any moots ive forgotten <33 tou guys have made my life so amazing and i love u all so so so much <333333
omggg tysm ilyyyyy smm sjsjsj this sis awesome ur awesome
@rootytootypointynshooty @starlydarling @mothusingtheinternet @mossymenaces @idkwhat2putbro0 @wewereborntodie-7 @lesbian-regulus-black @ididntprepareaname @thepicklekingog and all my other FANTASTIC MOOTIES ILY ALL SM FKJJKFKF
@local-lesbian-tree-demon @lady-st4rdustt @noyouwerebeautiful @by-pr0xy @ur-local-god-robin @scarletmasquerade @somanyquestions-featuringanxiety @dontyoudarejudg3 @bi-horse-alien + other moots i didnt tag love you guys <3
kate watson (also to clarify again! i'm not actually sure if it's a lynn painter book vibe, i meant that the fact that the characters are related in some way reminded me of that hehe)
If Grayson hadn't interrupted Skye, a key piece of information would have come to light. Avery would have told Skye when her birthday was and oh boy, stuff would've happened.
(Wrote a fanfic about it below 🫣)
"Do you mind if I ask, dear, when is your birthday?"
The question took me by surprise. Maybe because it was a question I wouldn't have expected from the eccentric woman standing before me or maybe because I couldn't remember the last time someone asked me this question.
"Scorpio? Or Capricorn? Not a Pisces, clearly—"
I snapped out of my trance and answered her.
"Libra. I'm a Libra. And my birthday is October 18th."
"Oh? Well, that's interesting," Skye said, arching her brow, "Libras are known for being idealistic, always looking for the best in others."
I watched as Grayson's mother continued ticking off the traits of Libras and not wanting to be rude, I listened. But only half-listened.
My eyes flitted to Grayson's direction and I was met with a confusing sight. The arrogant boy who had summoned me to Hawthorne House in Principal Altman's office was no longer there. He was replaced by a boy that had shadows in his eyes and he was staring at me in the most unusual way. It was like he was frozen in time.
"Grayson?" Skye herself had realised that there was something wrong with her son.
"What did you say your birthday was?"
He looked at me like he needed to know the answer, like he wasn't sure if he wanted to know the answer but needed it anyway.
"October 18th," I repeated again, unsure where this was going.
I watched as his gaze became more haunted.
"I have to go," he said hurriedly.
"Go? Grayson, the reading of the will is taking place in a few minutes!" Skye called after him.
He didn't so much as look back before rounding the corner of the hallway.
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Grayson entered his room and slammed the door. He walked over to the window and looked out. He knew that the reading of the will was about to start and he knew the importance of never being late as it had been heavily emphasised by his late grandfather, but he had to take a few moments for himself.
This could not be happening.
The girl's birthday was the same day that Emily died. Did his grandfather know this? Had he known who the girl was all along? Had he been keeping tabs on her, waiting for the right moment to bring her here?
Emily had been haunting his dreams every night and he'd spent every second of his days trying not to think about her. He couldn't let himself succumb to weakness and break down because of this.
As his gaze travelled, he saw Jameson balancing dangerously on the balcony of his room. Jameson. He stiffened and let his gaze move away from his brother.
Jameson blamed him for what had happened that night and since then, their relationship had never been the same again. He couldn't know that this girl, Avery, was possibly connected to Emily's death. Grayson knew that it would affect his brother as deeply as it had just affected him.
There was a knock at the door and it opened slightly. He stepped away from the window, pretending to adjust his suit.
"Gray?" Xander called out. "We're ready for—" he stopped mid-sentence, once he caught sight of his brother.
"Is everything okay?" He asked.
Grayson was a master at not showing emotion and he knew better than that. But today was an exception. Perhaps it was because of the fact that Emily was brought up again or maybe he still missed his grandfather, the only person he had looked up to all his life.
Silence. Grayson didn't offer a reply and Xander caught on.
"What's wrong, Gray?"
"The girl." That was all he could muster as the remainder of his energy was used to control his breathing.
"You mean Avery?"
He took a deeper breath and continued.
"Ms. Grambs' birthday," he began, "is the date of Emily's death."
As he finished the sentence, Xander's eyes widened. He knew how much Emily had meant to his brother. To his brothers.
"You... you think the old man knew?" Xander let the question hang in the air.
"Xander, you know as much as I do that the old man had a reason for everything he did. What are the chances this was a coincidence?"
"There are no coincidences in Hawthorne House."
"Precisely. That's precisely why I'm not sure if I can face Ms. Grambs, especially at this time."
Before Grayson could gather his thoughts and take a deep breath, a voice sounded through the open door.
"What a surprise." Jameson.
"Jameson, this isn't any of your business," Grayson replied curtly.
"The mighty Grayson Hawthorne, afraid of facing a girl? Who would've thought?"
"Funny, because I can recall a few times in which you had no problem sticking your ass in other people's business," Jameson retorted.
Not waiting for a reply, he continued.
"So Xan, what's the deal? Why is Grayson acting so weird?"
"Jamie." Grayson said firmly.
"Don't you Jamie me." Jameson replied quietly.
"You lost the right to do that that night."
Silence filled the room.
"Xander, let the others know that the two of us will be down in a while." Grayson broke the silence first.
He waited for Xander's figure to retreat before talking again.
"It is because I am trying to protect you that I am asking you to not further investigate my reasons for acting weird, as you call it."
"Oh, enough with the act! You go about saying that you want to protect me, that you want to protect everybody, but look where that got us."
"Look where that got Emily."
That broke the straw on the camel's back.
"Do you think I wanted it to happen?" Grayson lowered his voice to a whisper, when it contrast, he wanted to scream.
"Do you think I haven't regretted what I did that night? DO YOU THINK that I haven't been asking myself the same questions, blaming myself and wishing, even if I knew it was useless, that I could turn back time and undo my mistakes?"
"Tell me, Jameson. Answer me."
"The only answer I can give you is that it's done and there's no point in regretting it. The fact is, we killed her." Jameson was getting ready to walk away.
"I invoke On Spake." Grayson declared, before Jameson had a chance to step one foot out of his room.
He had had it. He was done with the secrecy, done with the lies, done with Jameson.
"Since you so badly want to know, Ms. Grambs' birthday is the same date that Emily died. I don't know if this was what the old man was planning all along, but it's clear that if it was, this is a message for the two of us."
Grayson took a deep breath, calming himself. "Cease On Spake."
"He wants to repair our relationship." Jameson made that inference almost immediately, his eyes sparkling with intense focus.
"He wants us to make amends and right the wrongs we did towards each other." He continued.
"You know I love a good fight, Grayson, and you know I would love the opportunity to invoke Taeb Nwod and take a hit at you, but I'm not doing it this time. I'm not wasting my time. I waive."
"Sometimes, broken things can't be fixed. No matter how much you try to glue broken shards together, they'll never be the same."
"We'll never be the same."
Those were the last words Jameson uttered before stepping out of the room and leaving Grayson behind. Alone.
in honour of this massive amount of time i have before i start university, i'm going to hold myself accountable and GET THINGS DONE. i refuse to rot at home and become a couch potato, so i'm listing out all of my goals so that i can come back and tick them off and feel like i actually accomplished something in this time.
🎀 big girl things
- self-reflect and think of what i want my future to look like
- revamp my linkedin (it's looking really dead rn oops)
- post on linkedin (biweekly if possible)
- plan the type of vibe my linkedin should give off
- volunteer in a mental health organisation
- improve my driving skills 🙈
💌 my future self will thank me
- sell my notes
- finish studying all three of the psychology books i bought
- clear out my emails 🙏 (won't be surprised if there are 1k rn)
- delete old photos
- go to the gym
- decorate my study area?
🍭 skills
- try out baking
- cook actual meals!
🍓 creative expression
- write more (oh kai and paedyn you know i will write for you)
- write letters to book characters
- try scrapbooking
- journal
- faceless ig account? not too sure about this one...
🕺fun!
- read at least 5 books on my tbr
• fearless
• dueling crowns
• crowntide
• fearful
• the cruel prince
- catch up on all miraculous episodes 🫶
- travel 👀
- watch the sunset in silence (my favourite time of day!)
time to update 😋 (i hope updating biweekly will help me stick to these goals)
-> i do think it's important to mention that i spent the past two weeks immersing myself in the powerless universe but now that i have finished the books... time to immerse myself in my girlboss era 🙂↕️ (though i will never forget this series ever ever ever)
🎀 big girl things + 🍭 skills
- going to start soon 🙂↕️
💌 my future self will thank me
- i am in the process of selling my notes and i hope to attract some buyers to earn some money 🙂↕️🙈
- i did delete some old photos here and there, but i should probably go through them chronologically bit by bit
- need to set an intention to go to the gym fr
🍓 creative expression
- i have written 🤭 4 fics in total from the time i posted this!
- i wrote a letter to adena and kitt, but i'll have to write one for the rest soon 🙂↕️
- i'll start the rest soon, although i did journal a bit (10 mins lol) the other day
🕺 fun!
- 2 out of 5 listed done 🥹 i'm replacing the cruel prince with if he had been with me bc i want to take a break from anything fantasy 🫣
- i only caught up on 2 eps which means i have... probably 5 more 😭 but it's bc they aren't in the english dub yet soooo not my fault? hehe
- soon soon
- my immersive reading experience has prevented me from watching sunsets but i will do so next week
a little bit late for my biweekly update but i'm here!
-> things i remember doing in the past two weeks: setting up my linkedin, writing a resume + cover letters, binge-reading crowntide
-> didn't have much time to explore my 🍭 skills goals
🎀 big girl things
- i did a reflection on my values and the kind of person i am to help me in future things (mostly setting up my linkedin and writing a resume + cover letters as mentioned) so ✅️
- successfully updated my linkedin! ✅️
- i still need to decide my post formatting + the content so... this is in progress 👀
- i've prepared all the necessary docs i need for my application so now i just need to send in the form! hopefully it goes well 🔮
- okay i REALLY need to drive again lmao
💌 my future self will thank me
- no buyers yet :( so i might have to post online about it
- i made progress on one but not too much so i'll take note of this!
- i did delete SOME emails but i didn't do much for photos lmao i'll have to really remind myself
- the other two are also in progress 👀
🍓 creative expression
- i wrote and published a few more fics!
- took a hiatus on this oops, i'll probably put this on old while prepping the christmas gifts hehe
- i've been trying to journal everyday in december but that is proving to be difficult (STILL TRYING THO)
🕺 fun!
- 4/5 done and reading the cruel prince currently!
- in progress (need to check if the recent episodes are english dub)
- ✅️
- sorta ✅️ (although it's been quite rainy here these past few weeks aaaa)
-> from when i last updated, i enrolled in my future university, survived a blood test and an injection, lost my blog temporarily and rebranded, prepared christmas gifts for some moots <3 and got a little sick (but i've recovered!)
-> sorry skills 🍭 i've been skipping out on you big time
🎀 big girl things
- i posted! i initially wanted to draft posts to maintain consistency but 🤷♀️ that's alright, i'll continue posting when the idea comes into my head <3
- about the volunteering... i might reconsider because i'm now involved in a student start-up project/passion project and i'm heading a newsletter! (i don't want to take up too much since i'm still on holiday after all so my main focus will be that for now, and volunteering/interning can wait 👊)
- I FINALLY DROVE AROUND A BIT LAST WEEK but i want to continue each week 🙂↕️
💌 my future self will thank me
- i recycled some of my old books 🤷♀️ but yeah i need to post somewhere about my notes HAHAH lemme add it to my to-do list
- i've started working out at home 🙂↕️ (the gym is just downstairs but i'll start small) and my goal is to work out at least 3 days a week 🙏
- everything else is in progress, at this rate i need to book out a few days to get this done RAAAHHHH
🍓 creative expression
- i took a hiatus for some reason but i hope to at least write the 3 fics i wanted to 🥹
- i don't know why i haven't written letters to pae and kai
- haven't scrapbooked, haven't journalled in a while (i might forgo journalling and only do it from time to time now)
🕺 fun!
- still reading tcp BUT I GOT THE OUABH SERIES TODAY
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i really want to see how cardan goes from throwing dirty looks to jude -> jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude jude (to a simp LOL)
chapter six
- oh. WTFFFF THAT GUARD IS DISGUSTING WTFFFF...
- oh jude 🥹 i won't hate you for anything you do bc you have your reasons
chapter seven
- The more correct answers I give, the angrier Cardan grows.
make him so angry he turns red (i'm sorry cardan but i really need to see you crash out over her and i hate you too right now 😞)
- oh no
- the way he called taryn "twin sister" instead of her name 😭 also, when will he refer to jude as her name, i really want to see that
- It still hurts when she wades toward the bank.
jude the world may leave you but i wouldn't
- i find it interesting why they are doing this... the mortals aren't even bothering them and yet they go out of their way to make them feel unwelcome and bully them. is it a superiority complex? must they remind people who are different from them that they don't belong? i don't think it's envy... it must be the inability to accept people who are different from them 🤨
chapter eight
- it's refreshing to see the word "converse" in a fantasy book 🤭
- how is vivi going to move in with heather when she is living in faerie with madoc 😭
- THIS IS THE FIRST TIME. THE FIRST TIME! THAT ANYTHING RELATED TO MENSTRUATION HAS BEEN MENTIONED IN A BOOK LIKE THIS. A FANTASY/ROMANTASY BOOK. i applaud holly black. i applaud jude and taryn for bleeding monthly and still having to deal with those b!tches in faerie.
- oof good punch jude (sorry human boy, no touching people without asking)
- Cardan half-turns, and I shove him so hard that his back hits one of the trees.
YES SHOVE HIM GO JUDE GO GO GO
chapter nine
- Taryn won't tell me what Prince Cardan said to her. WHAT! TELL US PLS!
- "It's a blow to his pride, and it hurts his status, you acting like you're not afraid of him."
then why is he so set on making people afraid of him?
to the individuals who replied to my post earlier this month, prepare to see your gifts tomorrow!!
i'm sadly unable to make a gift for every single one of my moots (though you all get the biggest hug ever from me 🫂) so i could only make them for the moots who replied to my post on dec 2
i've deleted the post, but i have records of those who replied! 🎄 🔔 🎁
do note that i am no artist, but i did my best designing your gifts for you and i hope you can see that i tried to personalise them as much as possible <3
*reference was taken from images (pngs, cliparts) online but everything was drawn and coloured by my hand
*credit to pinterest for the pngs
✨️ keep a look out for your inbox tomorrow 🤍
to: leen @leenloveslotsofthings , karla @iheartkars , bing @meangirlsbway , neen @hawthornesbiggestfann , aven @sunsetovertheocean , vi @chaotic-bean07 , lys @rainforcsts , sadie @sadiecece , lia @liaisbroke , aria @arias-archive , sophia @0littlejoysworld , tushu @7975348473 , mira @runnningoutofink , mia @caramelmiacchiato , xaveria @royallyseagreen , emma @your-mommy-ems , nads @jadorenads , nova @shefollowedthestars , miranda @balladofareader , lavinia @starrytrax , soleil @thesongofsoleil , cece @inkboundmelody , amy @honeyfbh , alicia @foreverwinter22 , daphnie @his-littlefox & e @liketheriverr
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