"You don't fancy a drink, do you?."

I have written longer than that but its still super exciting and I'm trying to think of something special that i could do for this.

What i'm doing rn is trying to find my first and back then a bit popular Supernatural Wincest fanfiction.

Kinda the one it all really started with.

I sadly deleted it a while ago out of shame and even a bit of resentment as it was demon dean and very non con. I had a huge Problem with the fact that i could write something so "disturbing and evil."

It took me a long time to build this barrier up again that fiction is fiction and you are not what you write.

If i write about space or sky diving i am not suddenly an Astronaut or a sky diver?!

But i was a Teen when i wrote it and i tried to throw it into the "god you were such a fucking weirdo" box of shame.

Glad to inform i recoverd from that and still kinda write incestish non con fics! Lmfao.

Things never change.

But then they do all the damn time.

Anyways i believe it was called "killing strangers so we don't kill the ones that we love" (I regret my manson phase a lot and no longer Support him or his music!)

But yeah moral of this whole thing, DO NOT be ashamed ever of what you write and put out there.

Don't let it bug you until you delete a fanfiction, or fanart or any other creative fandom work.

Ship whatever you like.

If i find this fic i will reupload it....

And I am good with what I write.

I truly love my own writing. I like the way i connect things from thoughts to feelings and all the way back to hidden messages in things, I like that i really feel like i'm good at getting down a specific characters flaws and motivations. I love that i can do messy and yet it all makes sense together and i love my typos and grammatical mistakes because they are human and i simply lack the motivation to add grammar to my perfectionism.

Write what you love.

Write what you hate.

But never hate what you write.

And more importantly......

DO NOT HATE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WRITE.

I dev evolved 😀

Imma have to go over that just a lil bit.

They are truly outrageous. But I guess hearing J2 tell the same stories ad nauseam is worth it to a lot of middle aged women. They might even do something adorable like let you sit cross legged on the floor or do a piggyback ride 😍 Omg. Omg. Omg.