nina

Once I start getting close to my goal, the number always starts going up… Once I hit 103 my body forces me to eat more and then I go back up to 105 and start fluctuating between 105 and 108… it makes it feel impossible to get below 103 even though I’ve done it before… But my lowest was only 100.9 which is pretty embarrassing… makes me feel like a fake. Once I get to 103, I lose control and start eating again and it makes getting to 99 feel impossible. I’m just so isolated. I’m stuck at home all day and when my thoughts become too much, I turn to food. I was doing so well for a few months, but at the start of April I started slacking off. I have no energy to go on walks anymore… and I just can’t stop eating. I’m so disappointed in myself.