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“Being made human Without the possibility of BEING human The cruelest of all punishments.”

It’s interesting how Dylan never seems to draw the 5 at the center of the spiral. You’d think he’d overlay the two with 5 being the center of the spiral..but perhaps that was too blatantly obvious for him to be so literal. lol

but in addition to NINs The Downward Spiral there is this song - which he does loosely reference in the above quote:   “The End Is the Beginning Is the End” is a Grammy Award-winning song by American alternative rock band The Smashing Pumpkins. It is the first full-band song released as a single by the Smashing Pumpkins in the aftermath of their 1995 album, Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness.    The songs lamenting lyrics I think what you’ve pointed out definitely represents one of a few of his synchronous ‘signs’ echoing the number’s significance to him.  The end of the spiral is the end of his life but also the beginning, a rebirth into the next, the beyond.  Into the 5th dimension.  He needs to end in order to truly begin.  You’re right that the center of the spiral is ‘the core, the heart’. It is the Apex focal point place of all true meaning of ‘The Everything’. The end of the drain where the duality of life and death meet as one. It is metaphorically a transitional birth canal in which the spiral pattern represents to him the need to go down this spiral rabbit hole (or is it really spiral up?) to die and end so that he can be reborn back into a state of purity. To begin again.   There is a kind of lachrymose beauty to it which brings tears to my eyes. “What fun is life without a little death?”  Upward and downward In and out End and beginning…. is the end.. is the beginning…infinite loop One cannot exist without the other in the duality that is the Everlasting Contrast.   Thank you for posting this!  What you’ve shared feels like another piece to the puzzle which fits perfectly into place. :)  Oh, and, incidentally, I discovered this while perusing quotes in his journal: you can bet Dylan saw this as yet another echoing sign of the Number 5, pointing him to his True Love as he mentions in his suicidal love letter: “ This semester I still see you — rarely. I am entranced during 5th period, as we both have it off. To most people, I appear … well … almost scary, but that’s who I appear to be as people are afraid of what they don’t understand. I denied who I was for a long time. Until high school…. “ Dylan says he “denied who he was for a long time” and “people are afraid of what they don’t understand”.   Which brings me to this and where it all begin: Here is my impression as to what initially began 5 as “a very influential number, another brick in my journeyed wall.” for Dylan.