MrRepzion

I can’t stop thinking about this girl I like. Literally everyday I wake up and think about texting her, but I’m just so dang concerned about coming across as annoying. She knows I like her. We’ve talked for several hours at a time face to face — She is a Christian, I am one too, well  a struggling one…  My faith isn’t as strong as it used to be, but I’m slowing fixing that.  I found the problem for my spiritual decline with my relationship with God, it was rooted in bitterness from the people who deeply hurt me in church — I’ve been getting it resolved. 

She’s already expressed she’s not interested in me in the same way I am — and that’s completely okay, however, when I talked to my mom and dad; my mother told my dad the same thing when he asked her out the first few times.  After my mother spent time with my dad she discovered the type of person he really was in terms of compassion, love, and kindness towards people. At this point, she fell in love with him.  I’m not expecting anything, but I really want to ‘win’ this girls heart, but have no idea how to start. I’m completely clueless. Sure, I sit on youtube and make videos on relationships and advice, but I’m an idiot when it comes to trying to get to know a girl.

I want to fall in love — just like this picture displays above. No, I don’t want love for selfish reasons, I want to be able to love someone and show them how much I can offer them in terms of a secure, loving, committed relationship.  I just don’t know how to go about doing this to this girl. I feel so helpless and clueless. She’s kind, nice, a good listener, and didn’t judge me when I shared some humiliating things about my past with her — I’ve never had someone respond to me the way she did.