Michael🚬

i think i’ll go to his apartament so i can leave him my final goodbye, so i can stop thinking about him, he shows up in my dreams, im so sick of this

he helped me when my ex left me, i really thought i meant more to him, he knew everything about me, maybe i was the one who didn’t know anything about him after all

its just my sick thoughts, maybe i fantasize about this because i was groomed since i was 13 but i want to kidnap him, hold him captive and make sure he won’t escape, he won’t leave me again, all so i can have him back and all for myself

yes i do have homicidal ideations but i know the consequences and would never kill another person. i just like picturing myself killing them so i can be convinced they are dead so i can grieve them thinking they’re actually dead

i want to grow old, i think there is something beautiful about seeing yourself age despite everything you went through, but at the same time i want this to end, i want the pain to end, i want people to celebrate my death like i am a dictator who deserves to die for hurting others

i love him so much im never getting over him its been 6 months or more it never gets better it never hurts less please come back i wish i could hug him one last time and tell him how much i love him

A i loved u so mych why wgat did i do was i too annoying do u want me to kill myseld i want to kill myself if this is what youd want you dont even care you never did didnt u im sorry we met im sorry i annoyed you i shoyld end it

i cqn wait but he will never come back oh god why why am i put throygh this my heart physically hurts and he probably already forgot

i dont even want to vent to anyone i only wanted to talk to him and now hes gone why am i grieving someone whos still alive and better off without me im pathetic i dont deserve to breathe rhe same air as him why am i still here i have to die im a waste of space why was i born i only make oyhwr people’sl ives worse i shouldnt be born if i was dead everyone else would be. alove my death will fix everything ans i have to die i need to this is the way i can save tge world and nobody will grieve me they will celebrate like wgen hitler killed himself im as bad as him i deserve to be dead

i wish i was white maybe id hate myself less

i am nothing and i want to be everything

i wish i was loved even if the love was actually just pure hatred i dont want to be alone

i wish i had a gun so i could blow my brains out rn

literally on the verge of tears not only am i lowk suicidal and want to blow my brains out so everyone who doesn’t like me can be happy that im dead but also because A HUGE MOSQUITO JUST FLEW ACROSS MY FACE AND TOUCHED IT IM ACTUALLY GOINF TO BREAK DOWN BRO

i need to get blackout drunk and jump off a bridge or something im human waste