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And my boyfriend (Idk if I should call him that, we still haven't confessed our feelings even though we can't stop texting and talking) stops working at 6 pm and falls asleep before 11 pm so we can't talk much

I want to tell him how my day went and constantly talk to him and yap to him

I just want to meet him again but he's living in another city

This weekend I have to see him or else I'll go crazy

This stupid line that we still haven't crossed is starting to annoy me a lot

I just want to become real couples

I just want him

It's 1 am I just came from work and he's sleeping

But at work they always make me do the easiest jobs

Men don't let me do anything hard

Also after quitting cigs my skin and my eyes are glowing like crazzzy, I think that increased my pretty privilege tooo

Working on how I look 24/7 helps me sm in real life

Pretty privilege is real, after being chubby without any self care, I realize every bit of it

Life is actually so easy but now I get to experience it

Goal is to be thin, healthy and full of joy and energy

Life updatee🎀

My weight is still 55 kg, it's a food factory and it takes my appetite away looking at all the messy food in there

But it's sooo hard I literally got so tired yesterday I jumped to my bed as soon as I got home without eating anything

And being in love with this guy motivates me to work more so I can be prettier to him with all the clothes and makeup I'll buy with my money lolz

She protected me from unnecessary men and her relationship advices are golden

But her advices on cutting everyone from your life and only focusing on yourselves is toxic

So to sum up

Don't do everything what a person on the internet says.

Take the useful ideas but don't forget you're also a person with a brain and willpower

No one is perfect. We're human beings with imperfections. At that time I told myself that I will focus on improving myself instead of seeing my friends. But once you start isolating yourself all of your will to do something productive fades away. You start to get more depressed, lonely and lazy.

I miss them. My high school girl group. They still see each other but I'm not in it. They want to get in touch with me but I was so depressed and following the wrong advices.. didn't work.

I will cover up all the mistakes I did.

Today I decided to have a healthy cheat day, I've been eating under 1200 calories for a long time and I lost 5 kg in a month(healthily)and tomorrow is my first day at work

My battery was low low now it's high high because I ate meat and lots of fruits and nuts (I didn't go over 2000 tho)

Now I'm all charged up and ready to continue to life

Y'all eating sandwich breads everyday?? I buy it sometimes to eat it as a dessert with jam or chocolate cream

There's no soul in sliced sandwich breads

Not fresh out from the bakery, isn't hot and crunchy, doesn't keeps you full and is so sugary to me

If I was the president I would make Americans eat real bread first

Even on a diet I eat my most calories from bread

Bread is life and I am not cutting it out

First times are hard. It's fighting against your unhealthy habits that you've been doing for years without realizing how much damage they done to your body and made you miss good memories that comes with a healthy and fit life.

I either have to lower my cal intake or increase my daily steps

But tomorrow it's my first day at work and I'll be so active (not by choice btw)

I'll get my money and get my daily steps too, 2 birds with 1 stone atp 🩷

So today I woke up and my weight was: 55,2 kg because I got insane nausea from yesterday and couldn't eat much so I lost 1 kg

And today we went to my sister's village for Eid festival and my nausea came back become of the road trip so I might lose another kg

But my face is getting prettier and my eyes are letting bigger so idk what to feel about that

Also I guess I'm in love with this man and it makes my nausea even worse, from love I guess?? I can't even chew and swallow food because I think about him 24/7 TF??

Life is tough but so am I

WE ARE STRONG AND PETITE BADDIES❣️❣️

Everyone's telling me that I'm getting too skinny again

But I like what I'm seeing in the mirror and I want it more

Now it seems like I like him too so my appetite is fully gone now

Because even though I say that I'm not sure if I like him or not, I have feelings for him

And it makes me want to be prettier for him

He picked me up with his car and we went to a cafe

Before going I drank too much coffee to suppress my appetite and to be able to talk more clearly (big mistake.)

On top of that he basically emptied a full perfume bottle to his car I guess and now I feel nauseous afff

As soon as I came home I jumped to my bed and after laying down for about an hour I finally feel better

I think I like him but I'm not sure either