La Simplicité

My Blog Is Four Years Old

I haven't told anyone about my pain or shared any of my emotions. No one knows that I love you the way I do. I have abandoned all of my firends and I am lone in my room every day and night twisted in pain and crying tears of great sorrow. I wonder if there will ever be hope for me. Ive got your pictures...Ive never printed them they are here on my laptop. I stare at the one, my favorite. Your eyes twinkle you looked so happy. You were so happy.....

They say god does not hear the prayers of sinners. I think maybe I am a sinner, because I have prayed so many times for you to come back but your still not here. I feel so alone. I am up at midnight thinking about you. There is thunder.... I rememeber how you would try to make me feel safe when thunder started. I am still afraid of thunder, in case you were wondering. I am hoping some day you will come back to me since I can't pray about it anymore. I miss you.

Taking a trip all by my lonesome. Gonna have a super awesome time. Missing Him he is on my mind but I am gonna have an awesome time. In a room cold and alone but its okay I can still have an awesome time. Looking across the room at the phone. Its been so long I have run away and I still can't get him off my mind. Will I have an awesome time? He has moved on now, I have to accept this I know. Not sure about that awesome time......The guy from 4E just knocked on my door asked me on a date I smiled and said no because I need time be okay and just like that I know I will have an awesome time.