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It's been about a year and I can't tell if I'm the same or if I'm worse. I've turned 18 and have graduated. But I have 0 friends. Nobody from school really talks to me anymore unless I post something then they'll comment but they don't reach out. I have a boyfriend now. We've been dating since April, so not long. We have a lot of problems and they're my fault. If I just fixed this one issue about myself then everything would be fine but it's not. We fight a lot when we're apart. I don't regress anymore but I enjoy the same stuff: coloring, plushies, anything cute, cartoons, etc etc. I always have though. I just don't really know what to do anymore. I want to just wait for everyone to go to sleep, leave everything here, and sneak out the door and kind of just start walking and not come back, you know?

Hello hello again. So I'm pretty certain I'm no longer regressing because I just don't need it as much anymore. I'm gonna work on myself a ton and try to get passed the obstacles that are still holding me back from being happy. I have realized that the things that happened to me are not my fault and that means that I have yet to mess up like my brothers and honestly when I thought it was my fault, I lost all motivation because I thought I had become a failure as they have. I'm gonna try my best to try harder and to dig myself out of this hole I dug for myself. I have made my Tumblr invisible instead of deleting it. I have turned off all notifications except for messages in case someone needs to get a hold of me. But if n/$/f/w people are still an issue, I will have no choice but to delete this blog. It was nice being here but I'm oddly enough happy to be leaving. Excited for the new improvements that I can now make c:

I have been kinda not on Tumblr much at all these last few weeks. Honestly I think I'm kind of done with regression? I just don't feel it as much anymore and think I should probably move on from the things that scared me into it. I haven't decided what I'm gonna do with this blog or if I'm gonna actually fully stop regressing. I'm sorry I'm late to reply to some messages and I missed a few birthdays but I've been busy with my own things. I apologise to those who I didn't mean to ignore. Annnyywwhhoo always work on yourself little kiddos and big kiddos and make sure to think twice about your actions and words and how they might affect someone else. And more than anything stay safe.

If someone confides in you about something or tells you something serious or that they take seriously, don't say "oof". You're better off saying nothing at all. You know what that word means when you use it? It's just a short way of saying "wow that sucks but I'm glad it happened to you and not me". Don't be a rude person. Help them out for once because they trusted you enough to share something with you.

Any discords y'all are in? For agere or art or crafts or video games? I love lots of stuff and would just like to make new friends. I feel a little left out in the groups I'm in because they're so gosh darn huge