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Hugh Dancy as Nick Scanlon in Coach

     “He’s just been so hell bent on all this, it’s like he’s in another world. I just miss my brother.”      She studies him for a long moment after the question, utterly surprised at the implications.      She trusts her brother so implicitly it never occurs to her that someone else might not.      “He would never hurt me, if that’s what you mean.” She sounds very sure of herself in      this. “Besides, I may not look like much, but I can take care of myself.”

      Thomas nodded once, holding his hands up momentarily in wordless apology for suggesting       her brother might cause her any harm. “I’m sure you can.” He’d certainly seen enough to        be past a childish notion that young women couldn’t help themselves. “No matter how it turns       out, I hope you let your intention to stop it matter more than what actions your brother ends up       taking.” He should’ve prefaced that advice with in case of the worst, but perhaps he wanted to       mask any pessimism he had.

alex’s face appreciation ↳ 2.20

“I think so. Eventually. Time heals all wounds and all those other cliches I have to tell myself, right?” Still, she managed to muster up a small smile for him and that, in itself, was progress. “I think if my brother and I can come to an understanding about this, we can start to move on. Once I really get him back, I’ll be just fine. Or at least a lot less stressed.”

      “Get him back?” he questioned, mind whirring momentarily through the different implications       such a simple sequence of words could have. But it wasn’t the most important thing, he       reminded himself, shaking his head. If she’d arrived at this choice with his help, Thom felt       compelled to care about its potential repercussions. “What happens to you if he doesn’t       come to an understanding?”

      “I don’t really think there are any definitive answers when giving advice, but you        helped me accept some things I was wavering on. You can’t really ask for more        than that.“ She heaves a heavy sigh, but she can feel the tension bleeding out        of the set of her shoulders as she makes a firm decision on what she’s going        to do. A direction, at last. “I’m going to stop him. This isn’t what our parents        would have wanted for us, regardless of how they left us.”

      He could sympathize with her, with the way sighed like there was a weight still unknown       to him behind everything she’d said so far. Thomas would have felt better if knew what it       was exactly that he’d helped her decide on. Stopping him, Thomas could only hope, didn’t       mean putting herself in danger. “Are you going to be okay?” Does anyone ever really know       the answer to that prior to anything of importance? 

      “You’re probably right. There’s certainly enough people we hold responsible to keep        it going.” She was probably oversharing at this point. Her brother would already be        furious at her for airing their dirty laundry if he knew. Family business should stay        in the family. “I’m sorry for unloading all this on you. I guess it was just weighing        heavier on my mind than I knew. You’ve been very nice putting up with it.”

      He wasn’t sure if that was reassuring or not. At least she seemed to see reason in       what he’d said. After her apology he nodded once, trying to give the girl a reassuring       smile. “It’s okay. I’ve heard worse. I’m sorry not to have any definitive answers for       you.” Thomas thought of leaving it at that, but curiosity got the better of him, nudging       him to ask, “Are you any closer to knowing what you’ll do?”

      “I don’t know. I guess not. Then again, I never thought he’d put me in a position like        this either so I guess you never really know. Honestly, I’m not sure I shouldn’t want        the exact same thing as him. Revenge for our parents’ deaths is within our reach        and I’m trying to stop it. Maybe I’m the one there’s something wrong with. Would you        take it? If you had the chance?”

      “If you start chasing revenge, you might not ever stop running.” He felt it was a        warning he’d heard once before, though he couldn’t name when or where. Suddenly       it had sprung to mind, and it felt apt enough. “I’ve never known it to end well, is what       I mean.”

Edna St. Vincent Millay, from Huntsman, What Quarry? (via violentwavesofemotion)

Will Graham | S01E13 "Savoureux" (x)

“I guess maybe I’m scared he’ll turn his back on me if I do. That’s pretty selfish, huh?”

      “No, it -- it sounds natural to me. But if he’s done as much as you say he has for        you, do you really think this would be the one thing he couldn’t forgive?”