ENDURE&SURVIVE.

in   times   like   these,    honesty   felt   almost   cruel.    speaking  so  casually  about  something  so  terrible.    to  jules,   it  was  a  double  edged  sword,   and  sugarcoating  it  felt  just  as  cruel.   lying  wasn’t  an  option,   either   —   ellie  was  smart,  and  she  deserved  the  truth  from  someone  instead  of  half  -  assed  excuses  or  being  shut  down  by  some  authoritative,  know  it  all   asshat.    

someone i knew. riley. she picked at the loose thread hanging from her sleeve; eyes averted towards the ground. she hadn't been able to do it when the time had come. when it was someone she knew. when riley had turned and she hadn't. she was a coward. they were supposed to turn together. that would have been easier. but the universe was a fucking dick. her hand brushed higher for a moment to rest over the covered bite. sometimes, if she thought about it too much, if she thought about riley, it ached.