respect james madison etc etc

i think the domesticity and stability of eliza are definitely thinks that attract alex, who has experienced these things basically Never since his mom died many years ago!

but you’re so right that their backgrounds are very different and that leads to fundamental differences between them and how they perceive the world; i think madison and jefferson also have a certain brokenness or damage or hurt or whatever you want to call it from their upbringings that make them more compatible with hamilton, because they all share a common language on that level, so to speak, whereas eliza (stable, loving, family home) fundamentally can’t understand where alex is coming from in key ways at key times

ooooooh interesting! i haven’t put thought into these as much, although i do think a Lot about angelica, who is the most interesting to me for various reasons (including that i just find her the most relatable and ripe for headcanons, since eliza’s character is very well established and peggy is the reverse of very unestablished but without much meat to cook the soup around)

i think i do view them as a very close sibling unit with angelica as the protector figure, eliza as the peacemaker more or less, and peggy as the mischievous younger sibling. they all know each other better than anyone else, including to the point of being able to call each other out on their individual kinds of bullshit

i borrowed from history/canon in having peggy die first; a lot of that yellow symbolism continues to carry throughout the fic (and might even be the first time i mentioned it…?). peggy was very much a glue that held them together in common, the sister they could go to with secrets they thought the other would judge them for (peggy certainly knew how angelica felt about alex; i think eliza knew deep down but choose to be blind to it, like the original cut of first burn implies)

obviously, this was devastating to angelica and eliza; angelica was the one who attempted the leg amputation, because she had been bitten. obviously she died regardless, perhaps because or in spite of this effort. the real reason doesn’t matter so much as that angelica has to keep living with this ambiguity and the feeling of Failure as the oldest, protective, Strongest sibling. she would sacrifice anything for either of them, but she never prepared for that eventuality (and this all leads into lots of Other Separate Events happening within their surviving group)

i personally view angelica and hamilton as very similar characters in many lenses. i’m not sure i can explain this as clearly as i would like to, but i think they share very bright desires; in DOAN, that manifests a lot as suppressing what they want but perceive as destructive

there are some allusions to the schuyler sisters in the side fic about the pre-apocalypse life: angelica’s pre fic background of course includes stepping aside from pursuing ham because of realizing eliza’s feelings for him, true to canon. i think even after their relationship failed, she perceived (correctly) that they couldn’t be together without baggage from eliza’s side, and there is a deep regret in her over that (that occasionally slides into guilty resentment in her weaker moments, of which there are many in the end of the world)

eliza i think is obviously not really suited for the post apocalyptic world the way hamilton or angelica is, and losing peggy both tightens angelica’s feeling of need to protect her, perhaps to unrealistic and unhealthy extents. i think eliza feels much more deeply and lets herself feel, so whereas angelica is grieving but also trying to suppress that grief to be a more effective protector, eliza is feeling that actively, and that mismatch frustrates them both

angelica’s attitude is one of i don’t care if you hate me, because you if hate me, that means you’re still alive, and that’s what matters most

of course, burr is the interesting character between them, and his role in their remaining group does play a significant role in both mitigating and increasing those tensions between them, but that’s a whole separate conversation

it’s ok i can outrun you. i went to the hamilton school of running away from things (feelings)

Your fic, doan, is one of those fics that come back to me once every year or so. Been keeping up with the fic since its first chapter. Just wanted you to know how much it means to me. Thanks for writing it.

i think i have a different job now than when this was sent…. my bad. i now work roughly 60 hours a week. politics am i right???? :,) anyways life is crazy and good and the ao3 curse hits me and then reverses on itself but things generally work out in the end

i LOVE receiving theories but oof they are so hard to respond to without showing my Plot Cards so i have to be very ambiguous in how i respond to them —- especially where it regards Ending Content because i have the general structure sorted out but not all of the details filled in

anyways (i also wrote out an extremely lengthy response to this before and then tumblr didn’t save it :///// ) i’m just going to respond to parts of your message randomly

chapter 12 had it all! drama! reunions! feelings! a kiss?!?!? i’m sure things will be totally normal tomorrow

on the note of hamilton: yes LOTS of people of various backgrounds and motivations know who he is by now but obviously he’s very isolated for multiple reasons. it’s funny to me because many people are looking for him and he’s just like i literally don’t want to be Here anymore leave me alone leave me alone leave—but hey! he has A Reputation! so it’s not all lost alex <3

also yes alex IS indeed a biter. i don’t think he’s bitten anyone yet!?? but there is an extremely high likelihood that he will for anyone else familiar with the source material from TLOU i do have some similar plot points in mind derived from that. hamilton will do almost anything to survive and biting is DEFINITELY on the table…

love lafayette, he definitely does have a similar chaotic energy and it’s a shame he hasn’t really appeared in this fic because i do love a ham x alex friendship. i don’t have as many deep tortured headcanons for Laf because i think he’s usually a bit simpler and more of what you see is what you get but he’s a joy to write! no comment on whether he is alive/whether he will reappear in this story however

the next chapter is really fun for lots of reasons including Fallout but i’m more excited for the chapter that will Follow that one…. for reasons I cannot say but it will be a Journey

thank you!!!!! my stories are like usually 80% characterization and 20% plot (usually the most insane plots…. DOAN obv not as much, but actually a lot of my fics are inspired by Actual Shit that happened to me lol and even moreso by whatever emotions i feel DOAN is literally my covid experience on some levels)

i have listened to this song!!!! i’m not a huge mitski fan but i actually really like this one because it IS very DOAN alex coded i may end up adding it to my doan playlist….