Alchemy Sounded Good At The Time

Don’t take anything personally. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

and you’re scared of love because you’ve never been taught well you’ve seen the painful kind of love that breaks your bones, and you don’t remember the last time your mother smiled or a time when your father didn’t spit words covered in acid so when “love” showed up you settled for it and let it sting and you ignored the bruises and the yelling and the tears and the other girls because you grew up in a home where love hurt so when love actually shows up you’re anticipating its departure and you’re waiting for the first night he gets drunk and tells you how he really feels and you don’t expect midnight conversations to be a regular thing and you’re waiting for the first night he screams he doesn’t love you and you don’t expect to hear “i’m mad at you, but i still love you” and you’re waiting for the door slammed shut on your fingers, not a kiss on the cheek and stitches on your heart

When I talk about bad habits people think I mean my actions how I forget to floss sometimes and stay up late when I could already be asleep But my worst habits aren’t the way I bite my lip when I’m nervous or pull at my hair when I’m stressed my worst habits are choosing sadness, even when it’s sunny outside feeling lonely surrounded by crowds my worst habits are thinking of you again when I see someone with the same sweater  and drowning in thoughts I should get rid of my worst habits are the ones in my head

I put my heart and soul into my work, and I have lost my mind in the process.

She leads with sexuality. She says “fuck me,” as hellos,  and “fuck you” as goodbyes. If she says, “I love you already.” don’t run away, don’t worry, it only means, “How was your day?” It means something normal. Even if she doesn’t say it, she isn’t normal. Her eyes begin every sentence with, “Will you love me? Will you fuck me? Will you promise to never leave me?” And when you say, “Bend over,” It will mean, “Love you, too.” You used to think sex was meaningful, but now you know, sex isn’t love. Sex is medicine for sick people. Your body, naked, shaking, is more of a multivitamin for sociopaths, than it is your body. She leads with sexuality, but how else can she lead? It’s the only concept that she can grasp. And no, your cock is not big enough to fill the hole in her heart.

i’m a sad girl, you shouldn’t fall in love with me. i’ll ruin you while i destroy myself.

First we feel. Then we fall.

Morgan  Freeman.