All the things I did to make you mine

If it was a piece of paper, I would tear it. If it was a bottle, I would break it. If it was a wall, I would tear it down- But it is my heart - unknown

it is not an evil thing to look at yourself with kindness. Your life was never meant to be a punishment

Every day that we didn't speak felt like declaring war in a battle I didn't want to fight - Sylvia Plath

I had all and then most of her. Some. And now none. My eyes hurt. My soul is tired. I just want to be the man she fell for again.

I loved it when you spoke to me so lovingly. With so much affection. You called me baby. That’s all I wanted. You would call me shuna and moyna. Queen. Bride. Wifey. My love. Shundori. All the things I loved. And I ate it all up like it was the best thing ever. You were basically an addiction. A drug I couldn’t get enough of.

You chose to erase my love and I from your life, but you didn’t have to erase my love and I from my own life.

You were sat in the car smiling. I took pictures of you. You looked so beautiful. Your smile was so big it felt like it could scoop me up and make me feel better in any circumstance. I saved the pictures as videos. I could hear you laughing at me speaking about you being the view. You looked at me with so much love. No one’s ever looked at me like that. I fell so deeply in love with you that I couldn’t believe you were real. I thought what did I do to deserve so much love like this. That day was short but my heart felt so content with you.

The loml dumped me