feral disaster

you can't avoid your way into a life you love

*staring sternly into the mirror* you've had a wild week, you haven't eaten today, you've barely interacted with people today. do not trust the Vague Sense of Unease

*squeezes your hand* we’ll be alright

joining the war on pigeons on the side of pigeons

did perfectionism ever truly protect you from harm or neglect as a child though. ultimately. Lol

[REALLY NORMAL AND WELL-ADJUSTED VOICE] well you never know maybe it COULD have saved me. if i ever actually achieved perfection. it could have happened then. if i was actually ever enough. Which i was not

when I don’t have a book to occupy my free time I am Sad and have something Missing from me

i just want to lay in bed and read books all day and not participate in life

this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability

i think it’s really essential as an adult to stay silly and goofy and weird

people joke about brain fog but it’s just fucked because not only is it completely debilitating but it’s so frustrating???? like what do you mean I can’t focus on a basic task? its taken me 20 minutes to write a basic email??? shaking my head side to side just to activate something