Rowan | He/They/It | Non-binary | Pan + Ace | DID + Autism + Selective Mutism + Tourette Syndrome | I like a variety of things that I draw + write | Ask me about headcanon stuff | I’ll write requests within reason
Don’t rush me, I write/post things at my own pace! Hey, anyone who happens to be here! I’m Rowan (he/they/it) , some creature who found their way to this app. I tend to hyperfixate on things for extended periods of time. I find myself more focused on specific characters sometimes as opposed to the entire creation (be it a book, game, show, movie, etc.). I primarily do writing, on the rare occasion you may see a drawing. I have so many headcanons that’ll die with me unless asked about them, so feel free to ask about that, or share yours with me! Be kind, any hate will be deleted!
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Things I enjoy
•Batim (mostly Sammy)
•Fnaf (mostly William)
•Fnaf Novels (mostly Dave)
•Sally Face (mostly Larry and Travis)
•Little Nightmares (mostly Six)
•Little Nightmares 2 (mostly Mono)
•Deltarune (mostly Rouxls and Tenna)
•Undertale (mostly Burgerpants and Papyrus)
•Splatoon (Mostly Callie)
•Splatoon 2 (mostly Marina)
•Pokémon (mostly James)
•Outlast (mostly Richard Trager)
•Outlast: Whistleblower (mostly Eddie Gluskin)
•Outlast 2 (mostly Val and Marta)
•Outlast Trials (mostly Leland Coyle)
•Supernatural (mostly Cass and Dean)
•Chicago (mostly Velma, Roxie, and Billy)
•Dexter (mostly Dexter)
•Criminal Minds (mostly Spencer Reid)
•Steven Universe (mostly Garnet and Peridot)
•Spooky Month (mostly Kevin)
•Kid Vampire (mostly Count Papa and Kid Vampire)
•Lord of the Flies (mostly Simon and Jack)
•Detroit: Become Human (mostly Connor and Hank)
•The Owl House (mostly Phillip)
•Gravity Falls (just in general)
•Doki Doki Literature Club (mostly Yuri)
•DuckTales (mostly Gyro)
•Tender is the Flesh (just in general)
•Penpal (just in general)
•Borrasca (mostly Kyle)
•Dayshift at Freddy’s (mostly Dave)
•Moral Orel (mostly Clay)
•Venom (mostly Eddie and Venom)
•Prisoners (mostly Alex / Barry)
•Nimona (mostly Nimona and Ballister)
•Alice in Wonderland (mostly Mad Hatter)
•Little Miss Sunshine (mostly Dwayne and Frank)
•Life is Strange (mostly Nathan and Kate)
•Life is Strange 2 (mostly Finn)
•Life is Strange: True Colors (mostly Steph)
•Lost Records: Bloom & Rage (mostly Kat and Nora)
•Batman: The Telltale Series (mostly Oswald)
•Batman: The Enemy Within (mostly John)
•Barry (mostly NoHo Hank)
•Scott Pilgrim vs. the World (just in general)
•Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (mostly Rahzar)
•Zombieland (mostly Tallahassee)
•A Hat in Time (mostly Snatcher)
•Baldur’s Gate 3 (mostly Astarion)
•The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog (mostly Shadow)
•Sonic Prime (mostly Nine and Shadow)
•Sonic Forces (mostly Infinite and Ian Jr.)
•Sonic the Hedgehog Games (mostly Shadow)
•Sonic Movies (mostly Stone)
•Beastars (mostly Melon and Jack)
•Arcane (mostly Silco and Viktor)
•How to Train Your Dragon (mostly Dagur)
•The Batman (mostly Riddler)
•Gotham (mostly Penguin)
•Peacemaker (mostly Vigilante)
•Harley Quinn (just in general)
•DC (just in general)
•Monster High (mostly Toralei, Clawdeen, and Kieran)
•Adventure Time (mostly Ice King and Mr. Fox)
•Fionna and Cake (mostly Simon)
•Clone High (mostly JFK and Ponce)
•Smiling Friends (mostly Allan, Glep, and Pim)
•Psych (mostly Shawn, Lassiter, Woody, and Mary)
•Brooklyn Nine-Nine (Mostly Gina)
•Rabbit Doubt (just in general)
•Squid Game (mostly the Recruiter and Player 120)
•Carmilla (just in general)
•Doctor Nowhere (mostly Jeppy and Filbus)
•The Boys (just in general)
•Shoot From The Hip (just in general)
•Backrooms (mostly Clark)
•Iron Lung (mostly Simon)
•Project Hail Mary (mostly Grace and Rocky)
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I’m unhappy. I’m scared. I’m stressed. I need to calm down but I have zero coping mechanisms that aren’t detrimental and I need to be in a proper state in case my dog gets worse. I don’t know what the fuck to do.
Honey won’t eat, but she can’t take her pain medication on an empty stomach. I might have to take her back to the vet tomorrow. She’s stopped walking again, she won’t eat, she’s shaking worse, she whimpers if I try to move her, and one of her draining tubes doesn’t seem to be working right. I’m stressing out so bad :(
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I’ll give a Lupara update the day I leave since I won’t see her during my absence aw :(
Hope you and honey are doing good! The cats as well! How’s ur hair doing?? lol is the haircut going to be permanent??
I hope you’re doing a lot better my guy, and I’m so glad things are turning out!! :)
She said hi!
Hello, Lupara!!! Yeah, I believe the side shave will be permanent, it’s helped with the urge to pull it out (obviously, since the hair isn’t there) and I’ve been picking at my scalp less. Plus, it’s nice having it shaved out, I think I like it. Thinking of dying my (remaining) hair soon (probably just a streak for the time being) I miss having color in it.
The cats are doing well! Honey’s mostly just resting, I have to dial it back on the pain medication or I’m going to run out too soon, but she’s walking some- so that’s great!
I think it’s nice that my fiancé puts up with me, fictional introjects, and various alters (not all pictured) because not everyone would be willing to do that, you don’t meet a ton of people with a heart big enough for that many things, and I’m grateful for them 💜
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Hey :) I forgot to mention this when we were talking about Franco recovering from the injuries from his dad's beating. I briefly mentioned he might not be able to cook (at least for a bit) while he's injured, but I meant to mention that the person who ends up cooking for him (not sure who) will find out he eats like a toddler (in terms of being picky and eating very messy, I imagine he tends to eat with his hands) and I feel like he usually eats alone, so that's something no one else (not even Salvatore) knew about. He didn't have anything to feel embarrassed over before because he didn't ever eat with anyone else, he didn't really know how different it was. Not sure how Salvatore would feel about it, but he definitely wouldn't be nice about it given how he responds to most "baby" behaviors he has. Sorry this is a bit messy! Also praying you got some rest :)
I did get to rest some! Still feeling a bit tired, but I’m doing better.
I imagine Salvatore would probably hire someone to come cook for Franco, especially since Salvatore can’t be trusted to bring food home for Franco after he goes out to eat with the rest of the mafia; Franco feels pretty useless not being able to make himself food. Whoever he hires probably doesn’t say anything to Franco directly about him being a messy eater or him being picky, mostly since Franco’s injured, but they definitely report back to Salvatore. He’s not surprised, but he’s still not pleased. It’s not Franco’s fault, really, he wasn’t taught appropriate table behavior or how to feed himself without making a mess, but of course Salvatore still blames him for it. He probably brings it up to Franco, not gently, and it upsets him a lot. Even now, something as simple as eating, is angering his father; he just feels like he can’t do anything right.
Thinking about a post-Murkoff AU that has Easterman/Coyle I realised that what I really really liked was the dynamic in "Who's a good boy?" (when Easterman gives Coyle the dog cage), where the vibe was sort of that Easterman and Franco were both Coyles boyfriends but they don't really get along but they're trying so that they don't annoy Coyle. Cause they both really want to be nice to Coyle.
So that's what I would picture, the three of them. And Easterman/Coyle and Coyle/Franco is going fine, like, they hang out and those parts of it are fine, but Franco keeps complaining that Coyle spends too much time with Easterman and Easterman can absolutely not understand what Coyle sees in Franco. Of course Easterman and Franco won't talk about it at all, ever. So Coyle keeps getting caught in the middle. I'm thinking almost sitcom level shenanigans. 😝
This does in fact sound like a sitcom plot /pos
Yeah, I could definitely write something along those lines! I’m glad you like the dynamic of them both being Coyle’s boyfriends, even if they don’t get along. It’ll be posted when I get to it!
Hey :) I know you've got a lot going on, so feel free to take as much time as you need to get to any asks I send in, I typically send stuff in often (I love talking to you, and I tend to forget some ideas I want to share so sending an ask when it comes to me helps me keep track) so I wanted to give you a heads up before I say anything! I have a Franco thought to share and I didn't want you to feel pushed to respond to it if you aren't in the right headspace and stuff. I feel like I've sort of mentioned this before, but I feel like sometimes, if Franco genuinely feels comfortable and wanted by someone, he will get a bit needy, for lack of a better word, where he ends up very overexcited (sticking very close, talking to them almost constantly) to a point where it's often annoying and smothering to most people. He won't really notice any signs of this (sometimes he will later) because he just, can't when he's like that, they're the best person or people in the world at that point so he can't, and we've already said he isn't great socially. I considered some of the others have picked up on this behavior, but wasn't sure. I feel like this matches up with some of the other stuff we've talked about, so praying this makes sense!
I love talking to you, too! I feel super drained right now, haven’t slept, but I’m still trying to get to asks.
Franco gets very clingy when he likes and trusts someone, and that’s saying a lot, because he doesn’t handout his trust to just anyone. It takes him a while to get used to people, to feel close enough to someone that he can lower his guard at least a little bit. It’s also incredibly rare to come across someone who likes him, not just tolerates him, but genuinely likes and cares about him as a person, so he holds on tight when he finds someone like that. He feels like if they care about him, then he’s less likely to mess things up, so he takes that opportunity and he runs with it.
He’ll tell them everything that’s on his mind, really talk their ears off, show them all of his things, and he’s practically bouncing with joy the entire time. He wants to be with them constantly, wants to be joined at the hip during trials, wants them to hang out in his cell during any free time, and he just wants to be able to do all the things he’s not used to getting to do with people. He’s also more physically affectionate, but it’s not even intentional. He’s just so happy to be around them, that he doesn’t fully realize what he’s doing. Maybe he tugs on their sleeve, maybe he tries to hold their hand, maybe he goes in for a hug, but he’s not even thinking about it.
He doesn’t realize he’s being annoying or overwhelming, that he’s smothering the other person, because right now they’re the center of his world. He can’t think about himself, about other people, because this is the only person who matters to him. They’re up on a pedestal that they never asked to be put up on, and he’s putting all his effort into jumping up to reach them even though he’s the one who put them there.
I imagine he also tries to give them gifts, little trinkets or junk he finds around trials, because he’s always shown his affection through gifts; it used to be his only option when nobody wanted to talk to him, because he at least had money to try to buy their affection, so he still gives gifts out of habit.
If they told him to back off or dial it down a notch, he’d be devastated. He’d start replaying all their interactions in his mind, trying to pinpoint the exact moment he messed it up, or wondering if it was a mixture of everything he’d done; he’d be scared they never actually liked him, that he was misinterpreting pity as something more. He’d probably isolate himself for a little bit, definitely stay far away from them like he can’t stand them, but he’d be won back over very easily. Gooseberry and Coyle know that Franco’s like this, as does Easterman, but they’re really the only ones.
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I just wanted to say that I’m happy to see that your dog is okay and I hope she has a fast and easy recovery.
Thank you so much! I was so stressed all day yesterday, and I didn’t get to sleep because of her surgery being in the middle of the night. I’m just glad she’s home.