not enough to go around

Ive Split Two fresh Alters Since everything Earlier this year and Everytime Truly I question what the Biological Intent behind them was. Unhelpful, Detrimental even, to My current causes.

buh it feels like everything i need to do is so juvenile and useless 😿i think i need to go away for a long time

often i think about abandoning the identity ive configured for the last 10~ or so years and trying something different, ive soft-launched a few separations but they never really "stuck" because i kept getting called back to this one.

An add-on so to say is That One of these People found me Again Completely On their Own, Which vaguely compounded The Sort of Magical Thinking I've been Having about contacting them and others. I haven't messaged them either As I don't think they remember who I am. And right now It feels a bit like Mania which Tells me I Need to Hold back for a While Until I'm thinking straight.

I do wish it were easier to halt obsessive thinking and move on, A lot of these "Thought Loops" Are surrounding People I lacked closure with. I'm feeling Inclined to reach Out To Certain people in an Attempt to "sort Things Through" But There is Nothing to Sort, so it goes. It's Like the Build Up in the Mind That makes People Drunk text their Exes.

looking at the simply plural replacements is grim

my name serves as a litmus test to all who meet me

sleep apnea so sucks it was so bad it managed to infiltrate my dream. my throat hurts

the system mistake isnt even unbelieveable, such is the life of partner systems

i think it is funny when me and my partner are confused for eachother despite layouts and names being seperate. unsure if people think it is a system thing

i feel like my life events are just constantly looping like forever every year since 2022 has had the same "story beats" and it feels like im going to have to do something drastic to stop it

i want to go outside and take candid pictures of my item

it feels like my language skills are deteriorating 🤔