cub@-l1bre

WHY THIS ISN'T FUCKING WORKING!! IF IM NOT TELLING PEOPLE HOW IM TRULLY FELL I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE IM TOO SILENCE AND AVOID ANY HELP IF IM TRYING TO TELL SOMETHING HOW I FELL I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I THINK IM TOO ANNOYING AND PEOPLE TIRED AND HATE ME I CAN'T, I CAN'T TELL ANYBODY HOW IM TRULLY FEEL MYSELF NOT BECAUSE "I DONT WANT" BECAUSE MY STUPID WORTHLESS BRAIN JUST CANT DO IT. i trying to change some thing in my life, i stopped drinking, i realized my life dream by seeing the sea for the first time in my life, I'm trying to break off relations with my abusive family. but im still unhappy, i just, i don't know im TRYING to live just in case that maybe it's gonna be better, maybe tommorow or in next year i can finally say something good about my life. ok, i dont know but maybe someone... ok im sure probably more than "someone" will understand this. I always try to help someone if they need any help, even if I don't know this person well, because... when i die i just wanna know i do something good in my life, or maybe i just trying find reasons to forgive myself,