If somebody would Jongup what would be his biggest regret is, he would say that it was around that time when he focused all of his attention, time and determination towards nothing and all he did was go to school, and rest in his home afterward. He had never even felt the thrill of being a student, experiencing tons of things that could actually change the way how he view life.
If he would be asked to say another answer for the same question, he would stop to think but no answer will come out of his mouth other than what he answered before. He never regretted the fact that him and his family leaves averagely, or the fact that he has no up to date laptop or phone. He had already quite accepted the fact that luxury is something heâll never obtain in this lifetime of his. Maybe in his other life he could persevere to live luxuriously, but as of now, such wish would be unobtainable.
He was staring blankly at the mirrored doors of the shop. Itâs too early to function well and the cold shower from his new place wasnât that much of a help than what he expected it to be. His expectations came crashing down along with the cold water which had touched his bare skin. He jolted, jumped and shivered with the new sensation tingling his sleepy senses. But right after the shower, drowsiness took over and everything he did had not help at all. He was yawning when he dressed up and also yawning after he left the house with sneaky feet and held breath.
Everyday this had become his schedule. Wake up before 6, prepare for your job, eat, drink, dress up and walk to your workplace. With this early strolls outside, he would occasionally see cats of different sizes and color lazing on top of bricked walls. He would see some old people taking their morning walks to keep their bones strong and also the breeze of early day is something he loves as well, even though most of the time he would end up prickling his skin.
His reverie was broken by a piercing gaze that he had coming from the customers section. One of the customers from the table was someone who Jongup had already familiarized himself. He had seen the guy a few times before but not ever in the past had he decided to approach the guy. He doesnât have a reason to do so.
He was afraid of taking initiatives, afraid at the sudden slap of rejection and looks. He was scared of the unknown, scared of uncertainties and also scared of what a sudden change of action could result to. But right at the back of his head, maybe, maybe a sudden change of flow would change something within him as well. Would maybe bring some splash of color in his life? That maybe he could still do something about the regret he had during the time when he was still a student.
Heâll try, heâll try to change something in his routine of life. Heâs going to do something to change the flow of his days and put a new point to the endless cycle of his actions. Heâll try, heâll try.
With cautious steps, he slowly walked out of the counter. The place had still empty tables across the place. The co-workers who have the same shift as he does were tending the cashiers. A line was nowhere to be seen due to the small amount of customers. The day was still early and still chilly. It wouldnât hurt to casually talk to one of their customer right?
He stopped at the other side of the table. Feet on the floor and eyes on the guy, often directing the gaze away from him but only to have it again back at him. It was not the first time he had seen the guy up close, but this was the first time he did saw him without the cash register in between them.
Would this question be fine to be asked?
âIâm quite not sure, but I think Iâve seen you looking at my direction. Iâm not implying anything or taking offence to that. Iâm just ⌠maybe you need something from me? I donât know.â His brain wasnât functioning well but he was wishing that the idea would be successfully expressed and that the other male wouldnât feel any bad thing about what he said.
He stood awkwardly in front of him. Hand on his nape, scratching it softly before he blew off a soft sigh.
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