smallwounds

how do I tell the difference between managing everything or I just don't feel anything anymore

hate

my main goal, is to be skinny enough so I don't look fat in a sweater. I love being comfortable but it just looks awful and akward. my boobs are too much, my thighs are too big and it doesn't work. I want be legs to be twigs so everything is oversized and perfectly fitted. my dream.

we are just few steps from being homeless. a few missteps and we'll be living under the bridge.so why do we treat homeless people do badly. they are trying to survive, while society is trying to push them out. but here we are in our big houses and money to spare, just to be depressed and not willing to live. be grateful, for everything you have.

one thing about me is that I hate everything about myself. I'm not shy or introverted, I just don't want bring attention to me, myself, my personality or looks. I don't want to be perceived or looked at. and thats another thing I hate about myself - not being able to talk normally to people, because I don't want them to see me. I just want to be the person who can easily bring conversation.but I can't, so just don't look at me.

summer is here and I've never felt more alone

not dead 😚

I'll try to post more, mby I'll try to post eating logs, but I haven't decided that yet. or like use this as a diary??? idk, just gonna experiment

oh god mobile Tumblr is so much easier to use than the website

honestly, my mental health is at my best when I don't eat. which is surprising, considering everyone has said the opposite. "you're not you when you're hungry", bitch, I'm thriving and living my best life living off diet coke and cigarettes

i need a cigarette

i have no clue how to keep a social media platform going. this is the sm where i put myself out on, and honestly i have no idea what to say or post or how often i should do it. why is it so goddamn stressfull