Crush Diaries 💕

and pretend to be dying.

Then the neighbors will all come in

to gape at me, and , perhaps , she will come

with them

when she comes, I won't need a doctor ,

she knows why i am ill.

But how could you help me when ur the reason of it.

Well i try my best to keep it up with me as long as i can.

I know I'm rushing things, not giving you time to take it all in.

But I'm impatient cuz I'm scared someone will get you and i will be left again... Alone

Pheww 😅 i never felt this helpless before...

I know we can't be a things cuz i know your asnwers were pointed to me...

I don't know the reason why can't we be together but again i can't make u love me just like u said..

😅😅

Don't worry i will remain ur friend and be part in ur good moments but i won't be sharing with you all the sleepless nights i had.....

Maybe I'm fool 😅😅 like who fell for someone's kindness....

I'm so baka.. I should have understand that you just needed a friend and i thought i could be more than that, 😅😅😅😅😅

I don't know what i should do, 😅😅 should i cry or should i laugh and move on like it never happened...

It's not fair god... And now i don't know why I'm crying 😅😅 these fucking tears won't stop ...

I wish i could just dig a hole a really deep one maybe around 100-200 feet and throw my heart inside .. So it won't make me get hurt again 😅😅

I feel bad 😅😅 i know I'm a stupid i just tried to push my luck 😅😅 what was i thinking just because she replies to all ur text, say good morning and end with good night text doesn't mean she loves you 😅 ...

Seriously how stupid could i be... 😅

I should have listen to my mind all this stupid heart do is make me go through heart breaks 😅😅😅😅

Well i always gonna regret i couldn't get to go on the longest route of metro holding hands with you 😅

Pick u up every morning.. Wait for you on metro.. Make excuses to just spend more time with you 😅

Huh, 😅 i have written so must that even i don't know what I'm writing 😅😅

Even though i know no one is reading but i still want you to read it..

Every poem i wrote for you... 😅 well i stole them from net but i guess i will take the credit for them 😅 atleast i could be happy seeing ur comments....

But i want you to know it wasn't a fling or just random thing that i wanted to be with you...

In these last few days you just said everything in my mind without me telling you... 😅

I just felt like i don't need to wear my masks around you.. I don't need to pretend to be a perfect guy but i guess i was just a fool 😅😅

Well now i will try to distant myself and try to forget you.... Well i will try my best 😅

"Out of ur sight, out if ur mind. But i also hope I'm on ur mind"

But I'm really glad i get admission there and met you..... I don't mind if I'm having a heart break for u 😅😅😅😅

But you just don't want to hurt me

But still i feel jealous when someone else ask u things that i want to 🥺🙃

And it is just me who's giving ur kindness the name of feelings

But I'm not at fault

No one ever been so kind to me 🥺 like you

I like it when you tease me,

You have the prettiest eyes and the nicest smile, especially when you smile at me. It makes my heart flutter, did you know? 

When you steal the breath in my lungs?

My body shakes 'til the blood in my face

Makes me awkward, smile, and turn around

How do I hold these emotions

When you spin my world out of place?

One look at me, it feels like everything

Is written marker on my face

I'm hopin' maybe you can tell me now

Am I the only one that's catchin' butterflies?

Am I a moth in your flame?

Do you burn the same when I

Look in your eyes?

Do you get butterflies?

You Look Freaking Cute When You Smile 🙃❤