fuck you anyways.

i can't believe it i really really like dawit.

dont say its ok because i know its not

i love you 

the totally human and normal boyfriend,

dave said to give him some time but i;m just so scared i hate it  i cant breathe 

i'm emotionally beat and i blame that all on me for hoping on it. like hey god can i have a fucking decent relationship where none of them die please just i'm sorry for whatever i've done to honestly deserve this? i'm so tired seeing people i love die and i';m so sorry i DON'T WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN BECAUSE LAST NIGHT YOU KISSED ME AND I THOUGHT THINGS WERE GOING TO BE OKAY BUT YOU COULD BE DEAD AND I WOULDN'T KNOW AND I HATE THIS IT'S TEARING ME INSIDE OUT EVEN IF YOU ARE ALIVE I CAN'T RECOVER FROM SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEAE S PLEASE PLAS PLEASE JUST L IVE

i can't bretahe oh ogm

you lkonw things were going great and then this shit happened fucking christ can i be emotinally stable for a week 

im not going to cry but iended up crying anyways oh my god 

PANIC PANIC PANIC PANIC 

this is the first time i'm like actually shy and not anxious like this is shyness oh my godd i'm not anxious i'm actaully being really shy about this ah.

nobody says ill get a sapphire bracelet because it matches your eyes and then pretend nothing happened oh my god im so flustrede. 

a date. 

sometimes i wonder if it'll work again. 

falling back again. 

ive missed you too 

in that way i mean! i know it's not going to work and that makes me sad.