Awaking Dream Be it Bittersweet

what he means: my first girlfriend sacrificed herself for the good of her people, and she didn't think twice about it. i saw firsthand what it meant to truly protect those you love, and in that moment i also experienced what it meant to be loved enough to be protected. but i wasn't ready. i didn't have enough time to say goodbye. she was gone before she fell back to me, and i knew it even before i looked for a pulse that wasn't there. she was heavy, until she wasn't, because i saw death happen in a way i never thought it could when her body vanished from my arms. i now know what it feels like to kiss a spirit, and it's the last touch i have of her. she sacrificed herself because she believed it was her duty, an expectation she felt she needed to face, and it should never have happened. but she got dragged into a war that we brought to her home. there was nothing i could do to protect her from its devastation, and i blame myself for her death.

what he means: that is so out there it is literally beyond my feeble comprehension and i have no idea how to respond and yet i can tell by your tone and expression this is something that has impacted you and yea that does sound like the sorta thing that would impact a person and it seems to have been a negative impact and i would like to console you somehow make you feel better and improve the relationship between us but even on a good day and with a normal subject id have no idea how to do that like what you just said sounds like something you should talk to a therapist about or maybe a priest or something but im not gonna say that i dont wana make you feel weird or isolated you shouldnt have gone through that and i would like to say its going to be ok but i dont know if it is or if this is the right moment to say that im sorry that happened to you