again, unhappy.
you left her after being unhappy for so long and although i didnt have to i let you pick up the phone when she called, respond to her texts when she beckoned, and even as far as allowing you to entertain her for a talk, lunch, or outings when you could. and then in a blink of an eye you were all mine. we were falling so hard or at least i was. yet i struck out yet again because here you are back with her and ive been kicked to the curb. all of the sweet things you once said are now taken with a grain of salt -- theyre literally almost all lies. but now im in her shoes but she isnt in mine. she doesnt push you to reach out and make sure i get to talk to you, to have my closure. instead shes basking in your attention, loving every second of it. is there any doubt in your mind that you made the wrong choice. are you seriously saying you dont think we couldve worked because you sure as hell didnt even give us a chance this time around. and this time im sure im the better choice. please, are you sure? regardless i feel used and upset and i cant shake these feelings. although i feel betrayed i still want you. its unfair that im yet again the abandoned one. but hey, maybe it’s my fault for giving away so much of myself each time. for once i thought i could be happy but here i am back at square one.
