SHIT RULES

hey all just wanna let u know im gonna be drinking green tea excessively for the next month. if u wanna buy me a christmas present just get me green tea. all sillies aside, im gonna try to drink 2-3 cups per day (as recommended by the internet) for the next month and see if it has any effect on my blood work results. i’m just tryna do what seems impossible. current creatinine: 4.86, current gfr: 12. the only reason im thinking about this at all is because for one random month where i did happen to be drinking a lot of green tea things got randomly better. i’m not that hopeful but i may as well try, it can’t really hurt! my creatinine level went from 3.7 to 3.1 to 4.8 and i just wanna test it out before i don’t really have the option to. medicare part b exists in my life yet again and all is well with that, i think. 

what’s up with healthcare. what’s up with medication prices. why the fuck do we have to exploit these things? why am i gonna pay money monthly for medicare? i have straight medicare and medicaid. and when it all works out medicaid is supposed to pay the medicare premium. i thought we would be a smarter country by now. i honestly don’t know how it all really works so any suggestions i have would probably be invalid, but i’m sure there’s something better and more organized than the shit we got going on right now. i don’t get all the inconsistency

brain function feels minimal these days bc of everything. 

shoutout to the american pharmaceutical industry. where my monthly supply of one specific medication (to keep my organ functioning) would cost over 3000 dollars. shoutout to greece for having the month supply for around 500 something euros. and my birth control was like 1.20 euros. hhahaaahhahaahahahaahahahah wtf

i have some small hope that i’ll get my medication on time. transplant clinic social worker may be the best person in this situation. trying to make sense of the tragedies in life is difficult. but i do my best. i guess. just kidding im lightly overwhelmed and wanna shun all responsibility. ayyy social security why u tryna torture us disadvantaged souls?

there’s a fucking mosquito buzzing around my head. did you know that that’s my least favorite noise? i thought it was paper crinkling but i guess it’s really just the buzz of mosquitoes because that always seems to make me way more angry. also, did i mention how much i hate medicare? thanks usa! thank you! maybe they thought they were doing me a favor? welcome to chronic illness world. capitalism happens to be inconvenient. as do internet posts. as does solving problems. as is waiting for people to demonstrate reliability.