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when just one person in a specific group you kinda thought you were a part of has you blocked its one of the most frustrating things because the reason why could range from 'was vaguely annoying once' all the way to 'believes youre literally hitler because of some callout post' and thats not an easy topic to breach is it and asking 'hey why do you have me blocked on this account' is always the wrong move right so youre just stuck wondering obsessively every time you see them on another friend's blog and wondering wondering wondering what do they think of you no ones said anything if people were mad they would tell you right? but at the same time yopu dont owe anyone an explanation for blocking them and that means getting blocked without any reason given and just finding out when you try to reblog their post and surprise ghost blog! doesnt exist! except i still have to see that blog everywhere and get sent into this damn sppiral again.

and then it happens again and it seems to spread and before you realize it youre being confronted about shit you didnt do or pushed out but nobody can be bothered to actually come out and say it so youre just left wondering what you wonder every time this happens asnd its 'what did i do wrong' and youre never gonna find out.

ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

"someone who really has pOCD would be disgusted and horrified at their intrusive thoughts" or maybe i'm in therapy & am going by the books, being radically ambivalent to my intrusive thoughts instead of wasting energy mentally washing my paws of sin. i'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed.

"I won't perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed" is going straight into my permanent storage holy shit

the united states must be destroyed

My stupid poser kidnapper wants to show me my missing person's poster but I don't think they do those any more and I kept saying this but they wouldn't listen until they wordlessly handed me a printout of a bbc article talking about it. They want to compose a ransom note with newspaper type but don't know how to buy newspapers as someone under 60 without looking suspicious. The other day I saw in the fridge a carton of oat milk with a home-printed photo of me obviously taken by them awkwardly glued to the side. I don't even get a basement. This is a one-bedroom flat.

Not the lil bellas redesign being ugly 💀

its kinda cute and it's kinda not 😔 idk maybe I just need to see it in person

dad that gets handsy after a few glasses of whiskey. dad that starts groping you harder when you try to move. dad that says he just needs to feel you. dad that barely gets his dick out before shoving it inside of you. dad that lazily grinds into you until he cums. dad that lays his dead weight on top of you and all you can do is smell the whiskey on his breath.