how are you?

Ideal age to get married?

i love love love the way you edit your videos!! the visuals, sound, transitions, color grading is just chef's kiss huhu u r my certified lodi and i admire you so much for your creativity and talent and for being you in general AAAA wishing you all the best ily

they call it limerence but you singing happy birthday to me is still my favorite greeting (or at least the feeling of it).

i watched a film with g today and it was all about about a dude who was trying to get over his yearning for a woman he met briefly when he was about to start uni. took him 18 years to finally flip the page.

you were here, in my city. and i didn't have the courage to meet you or meet myself. so i did what i do best. do you remember? i was doing my usual sunset watching at my mom and dad's rooftop. the sky just started changing into different colors, orange-red hue. i told you to look out because you had to see it. how beautiful it was. you said you were still covered with soap from showering but had to look out when i said so. and you went out, sent me a picture of a beach front. the sky's colors on your end of the world were different from mine (pinkish). you weren't here in my city, not anymore (i thought you still were), but the sunset still held its own kind of beauty. i'm just glad it changed to something (imagine i told you all that just to see some meh looking sky.) i hope the sunset wherever you are is beautiful. (this totally doesn't make sense, but it's a good memory in my book).

in the off chance that you’re reading this, it’s been 6 years. i know, i take a long time to get over something, or someone. i hope you’re okay and happy and successful. i don’t think we’ll ever cross paths again but we did once, this year. when i was in makati, my mom and i were walking back to the condo after dinner and i saw you, walked passed us, in black leather jacket and a head full of curls. or at least i think i saw you. i wasn’t wearing my glasses then so i can’t really be so sure. maybe it wasn’t you. maybe it was my head trying to materialize you out of thin air. like the “-ship” we had, non-existent. imagined. it’s been fun nonetheless, painful and confusing, but fun. i learned a lot. and isn’t that all that there is? learning opportunities. you were that. idk why i’m writing this, my 12 tumblr followers, if they still use their accounts may see this, but whatvr, you might also! idk. these days i’ve been thinking about love and romance and relationships. and i thought about you, but not in a i want to be in a relationship with him type of way (guess i never really thought of it, in hindsight i really was just caught up with teenage kilig) but in a, damn that’s someone i never want to encounter again.