yours truly.

Sunsets with you ✨

Watching sunsets, being at my favourite spot, the peace & tranquility with you is always gonna be my favourite pastime with you.

love moments like these with you, love spending time with you, it’s always a good time with you love!

Thank you for being my joy and for handling me at my best and worst. It’s so cute to see the way bubz takes care of me when I drink! How protective bubz get and how you make sure I am fine. More drinking sessions awaits okie (‘: *but definitely no tequila anymore!!*

When I’m with you.

I feel the safest, I feel the happiest, I feel myself.

I don’t know what you do but you make me feel safe and like I’m home. The warmest hugs & squeezes you give me always make my heart skip. Days spent with you are the best days ever, it can be us doing nothing to walking aimlessly around during our dates. Whatever I go through/lingering stress comes to a halt because you take all that away with just your presence.

I miss you the second I’m away from you. (Not that I’m a super clingy girlfriend) but because without you, it feels SUPER empty! And then I start seeing your doppelgängers around & wish it was you! I really cannot wait to be in your arms again!

To my most amazing human,

I love you! ❤️ I love you! ❤️ I freaking LOVE YOU!More than I can ever describe/explain!

HAPPY 27th LOVE ❤️

it’s our day baby!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY MONTHSARY my love! LOVE THIS MONTH because it’s my baby’s birthday month and I get to spoil you! It’s also nearing to the days that you’re GETTING OLD! So happy!! (hehe)

Can’t wait to bring you out and have an amazing pre-birthday with you! Thank you for being my amazing human bean and for comforting me through my storms!! (Especially when August had been a roller coaster ride for me)!! It’s a TORTURE not being able to see you though we went through 25 weeks+ of it already! And it always makes me ☹️ whenever I’ve to go a week without seeing you! Looking forward to seeing you next love!

Stay safe in camp & take care okay! Have a great weekend and week ahead! I love you bubz! ❤️

Dear Mr Giraffe look alike 👀 ,

WE FINALLY MADE IT TO THE ZOO! Thank you for such an amazing day! Can’t you tell the resemblance is uncanny? 🦒 JUST look at my baby! So tall, so handsome, such an amazing smile(even though it’s covered by the mask but your eyes brings out the smile). Such a fine looking gentleman! Always can’t take my eyes of you!! 😍

so happy i got to see you on both days! Thank you for always being my shoulder to lean on and feeding me with pep talks and listening to me ramble about my anxiety. Thank you for loving me on my bad days and on my happy days! I really look forward to spending my day with you whenever you’re out! Life + moments with you are always the best and I wish I can stay in that moment with you forever!!

You’re the literal rainbow at the end of my thunderstorms.

You’ve literally NO IDEA how much i miss you when you’re in camp, how much I LOVE YOU, how HAPPY you make me feel and how AMAZING it is to know I’ve the most amazing boyfriend ever! I will always say this & emphasise it as many many many times that: I’m so thankful for you, for how we are, for how much we have grown and will still grow together as one.

You’re MY MOST amazing human and life’s just perfect with you! I can’t wait to see you soon my love! I love you very much! THE MOST, PERIOD (You can’t deny me in here)

P.S : sorry for the late post my lover! Dontchu stare at me like this with that 😍 face! such a handsome baby!

to my dearest baby,

(Here’s your special double post for the month - you’ll probably be reading this right now with me, so heads up love, you need to read it out loud)

-I will choose you over and over again.-

I will choose you on days that are gloomy and on days that are shining as bright & humidly as the sun.

I will choose you even on days where you are worn out, tired out from the stressors that life throws at you.

I will choose you on days you doubt yourself as a person, on days where you feel beneath a tunnel, on days where nothing ever seems to be going right for you. I will hold you close and with all the warmth that I have, I will reassure you, fight with you on that difficult journey and believe in the same hope that we shall manifest together.

I will still choose you even when we don’t agree, if our voices raise, if I shed tears when we argue, if you pull away with cold shoulder treatment, if we stay silent amidst our disagreements, I will still choose you.

I will love you, no matter how angry i feel. I will still care, even if it’s not something that I agree with. Though it might take time with my stubbornness, I will still run back to your arms after every fight.

I will still choose you even when you make me mad. My love for you will never fade away just because we are angry. We will fight and get frustrated with each other but still, I will go to battle for you. Still, I will choose you.

I will forever keep our bond close to my heart, rekindle every single memory that we shared from the day I knew you from tuition, when I came back again into your life and started this beautiful relationship with you.

I will choose you, on our best days and worst nights. You mean the world to me. I will choose you, because you are my version of a perfect & amazing human being. I will love you, every single flawed/non-flawed part of you, every bit of that heart you have, every action that you do to make my life the best and I will love you, for a lifetime beyond.

HAPPY ORD & HAPPY 26th MY LOVE!

HI MY LOVE! Thank you for a wonderful night. Firstly, happy monthsary baby! I am EXTREMELY APPRECIATIVE and THANKFUL for my baby! Thank you for dealing with my rollercoaster rides throughout and still being by my side like always.

Secondly, even though it is not gonna be your official end of NS, Happy (almost to be) ORD. I really cannot wait for you to be out of there and be sad over your book in days - anticipate your book out days! On this new six months journey, have a great one! Remember to always be safe though now you would probably have slightly more responsibilities! While you’re in camp for a week, take care of yourself okay love! I cant wait to see you next. ❤️

ding ding ding! 🛎

BABY’s back to camp week is here already! THANKFULLY it’s gonna be a short mount! AND YOU ARE ABOUT TWO WEEKS (?) AWAY FROM ORD! I would have been the happiest person ever counting down if you really finished your NS journey then! But it’s okay, I would need to wait for that! (‘:

but ANYWAY, I got to spend three days in a row with you after a while!! And we finally went kaikai & we burnt holes in our pocket!! BUT kaikai will always be fun with you! Can’t wait to see you again on Monday bubz! Please start bringing back your stuffs from camp so you don’t have to haul back a truckload nearing the day! STAY SAFE in camp okay!

I WANT TO GO KAI KAI WITH YOU ALREADY! 😭

-heh, do you remember this picture?

Hello my love! You are back into water forest & I already cannot wait for you to come out! I’m EXCITED for our long awaited date. Lets use all our wind forces and push the week faster. I want to hold your hand (👫🏾), go Jalan Jalan and squeeze you again!

Have a guuuuuuuuuud mounting week ahead okie love! Please BE SAFE and SANITISE + WASH your hands often! I would rather be in your arms right now then to go through brain torture with school! Sigh! T-7 days left! See you soon baby!

Twenty-Five❤️

Happy 25th my love! Remember picture of 2018? Look at the fatty us hehe and my baby’s beard! 🥺

Really glad we FINALLY got to see each other & that at least I get to see you on our day! Just wanna tell my baby that thank you for keeping me sane. I had been having the worst of days and you just know how to make me feel better even without being physically there. Thankful for you every single day & I really mean it when I say you’re the most amazing human bean!

TWO WEEKS into the far far corner!

we’ve reached the day that bubz has to go back to camp! (Hence, the relevance to this FRUMPY picture of us). Crossing my fingers that by the time bubz comes out, it would finally be time to see you!!

Thank you love for making the effort to bake those yummy goodies! Looking forward to cooking with you and having all our post-kaikai dates! First things first, I WANNA HUG YOU! I really miss baby’s hug. It’s my safest spot to be in, all wrapped around your arms. Now that baby’s back in camp, it wouldn’t be that tough on you because you’re constantly gonna be doing things. I’m sure there will be alot of things to settle because of the month you weren’t in camp BUT I know you can still pull through! Please take care of yourselves and remember to constantly wash/sanitize your hands!

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY ❤️

Dear love,

We’ve finally hit (365 days)x2. Little beansprouts us have become beanstalks where giants live! Though we can’t spend our day together, I’m still happy we got to hangout virtually and with how you surprised me with sunflowers when I woke up and got me boba!!

Thank you love for always being the constant joy in my life and for sticking by me throughout. We conquered two years of adventure and I can’t wait to continue the rest of our lives together! Always thankful for you everyday and for much we’ve grown together. (In size too, we’ve blobbies!) I want you to know that I’m always gonna be as annoying and as stubborn and always gonna be right here with you. I love you and I love us! I cannot wait to see you my love!

miss you very much.

miss going on dates with you.

miss clinging onto your arm.

miss your hugs. miss your kisses.

miss being with you for a whole day and literally missing you the minute we get home.

can’t wait to hug you and cling on you like a koala again. Always thinking about you and I can’t wait for all these to be over. I just wanna hug you so tight and kiss you all over your face and just have you close to me.

TWENTY-THREE

HOWDY BABY! we have turned as YOUNG as me together! One more month till we hit two!!

Exams are finally over for me & thank you for putting up with my busyness, random mood-swings & for constantly motivating me and feeding me with food. Sometimes I feel I can’t keep up with all the love baby is showing me and feel like I’m not doing enough for you. You constantly know how to make me feel better and make me see things in a better view. Quarantine life is HARD! I really wish I was living together with you right now. Can you imagine? How much annoyance we are gonna be for each other!! (Hehe)

Anyways, all the best for your course in the west for 2 weeks! It’s gonna be difficult for the first few days but my baby is never a quitter. (This phrase suits you more than me). I’m sure you’ll do the best with whatever you’re faced with! But also remember to drink up & rest well through the night! Be safe baby!

I can’t wait to be in your arms again and just hug you and never let go! I love you baby! Can’t wait to see you soon ❤️

“Your arms always felt like home”

My love. It has been a horrible 2 weeks without physically seeing you. We’ve another two more weeks to go and now you’ll be over at the east.

I can’t to see you when all this is over. It’s honest tough having to keep myself sane without you. With all that’s going on, you’re the only person I just wanna run to and hug and feel better again. Cooped up in here just drives me insane but I just try to make myself better with the thought that as each day passes, I get to see you & that’s all that really matters.

Thank you for being so patient with me these few days. I’m never easy & I don’t know how you handle me either.

Have a good two-week stay in camp. Please take care of yourself and be careful whenever you’re on duty! Remember to wash and sanitize you hands okay? It’s Super tough without seeing you but we’ll get through this like always.

twenty-two

Happy monthsary my big baby ❤️

TWENTY-TWO: the same young age as me. (Heh) look at us, hitting the 2 in TWO months. I feel like our relationship over these past 22 months has been about loving each other endlessly, growing together, annoying the hell outta each other and PROVEN AND TESTED that you are a lucky star. I cannot wait for more years with you. You always bring out the best in me even on my worst days. Looking forward to seeing you and talking to you always keeps the insanity away. These past few months and probably months along the way had been & would be pretty tough (with school and my parents) but I’m always thankful I have you with me. I WOULD have lost my mind by now if not for you. Clearly, I can never handle stress but you always know how to make me feel better.

2020 probably isn’t such a good year with this virus around & as much as I really wanna see you, we needa STAY HOME; that sucks. BUT, we can make the best out of online dating (wink, wink). Looking forward to our hangout dates aye!

“The toughest battles are always won by the strongest soldiers”.

It’s been pretty tough these days to keep a very strong upfront yet feeling completely moodless and an anxiety-evoking mind that comes in unwelcomed.

You my dear amazing human bean have tried to get me out of that bubble and even made me cry at how proud you are of me. The best way to let go of whatever I’m feeling is to pen everything down and to see you.

Unknowingly, I might have reached my peak the other day where I’d probably been piling up alot of anxiety thoughts and random waves of insecurities and it probably got too much that I just burst.. it’s gonna take a while for me to be okay again because it’s never easy to battle with these thoughts and to even think I’m getting better. Suddenly feels like I’m that failure who can’t ever feel okay. Sorry if I do seem so moody, I just need time to get rid of what this feels like.

twenty-one

I chose this picture because you are always my guide to the things happening in my life. When I’m blinded and choose not to move forward, you always do the right thing in pushing me to do what’s meant to be done.

Happy 21 months of loving you, my amazing human bean. We are gonna hit TWO SOON. I was just reminiscing the day we went for our first date. How I complained that im such an aunty to opening up about my boring life. You sat there listening to everything. You’ve been such a great listener and always know the right things to say to make me feel better. Yes you are a naggy naggy NAGGY uncle but you do drive sense into me. Baby, you’re the best person I could ever have in my life. You’re not just good enough, you are The BEST. I love you sweetheart, cannot wait to see you next!