I want someone to give me a hug and tell me it's going to be okay and I don't want it to be me for once.

the music died that day

i've been grieving you every second of every day since you went to sleep forever. looking, waiting for signs that you're okay where you are now. because what if i miss them?

I've been grieving you every second of every day since you went to sleep forever. It feels like my body is imploding and being torn open at the same time. it feels like dying. I am so scared I'll forget you. Because how dare I? You were my whole life up until this point. You were the only constant I've known. And now you're gone and I'll never see you walk through that door again and how am I supposed to be okay with that? How am I supposed to be okay with any of it? You are missing from my life.

you took a piece of me with you and I will never ever be able to get it back. And I want it with you. But its absence always reminds me of your absence. And it kills me. It kills me every time.